MADGYAL

Chapter 52: beyond me.

GETTING READY TO WRAP THIS UPPPPPPP
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"I don't gotta be in love with you to love you"

Vanessa
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"Hi!" A awkward smile grew over my face as I stared at the brown eyes looking down at me.

Here I was Vanessa Williams standing face to face with three sweet guy that i dodged for Millie? I remember leaving the paper with the number eight where he had given it to me only thinking about the tall brown Indian man I was in love with. While it was never reciprocated. It was a very hard pill for me to swollow but to accept is the key to healing.

"Heyyy Vanessa it is? Me shock fi see you here at my local church! But since you live near by the area me nufi be so surprised how you been? He asked me smoothly. I parted my lips to speak and before I could he cut me off.

"Sorry if you were in a rush I di-

"No I'm not in a rush. Me been alright, had my baby as you can tell and life been a get better fi me focusing on my self and my little responsibility" I smiled kissing Emilio's head. A huge smile grew over his cheeks.

"I see I see, that's good to hear. Him so fat and chubby cannot believe deh him did just in a yuh belly inna police station now here he is fat and healthy. That's great for you. Um... just to cutt to the chase why you never give me a call back from the last time I saw you? I came off too strong? I-I-

"Noooo, not at all. Paul-

"Micheal" he told me I smiled that's a nice name.

"Micheal, you didn't come off anyway at all it's just that I have been going though a lot from the time you had seen me and gave me your number but I've been trying to find my self and work on my self and my newborn baby. Coming back to church and taking in the lord words you know? Bettering my self" I told him with a small smile. He smiled softly.

"Well that's nice to hear! Makes me blush alittle" he told me and I giggled. We continued to walk and talk as Emilio slept on my shoulder and he gave me a drive to my house. I didn't really want him to see where I was living but he insisted and he told me he wanted to take me on a little friendly date to have a drink together and get to know each other.

I didn't really know about it but I decided to think about it. I was heartbroken and really didn't want to get back into a relationship that would lead to a broken heart again but I liked him. Everyone deserves a chance.
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As soon as I got home Emilio had woken up from his little nap and ready to play and eat snacks. I placed him in his little chair as I begun to cook dinner. I wanted to prepare some Parmesan m spaghetti and fried chicken and meatballs, I've been craving this with some garlic bread in the side. I love Italian.

I was now baking the garlic bread as I watched Emilio playing in his little chair and eating his little cereal s. I danced to the music as I watched him walking over to him and picking him up's

"SKA SKA SKA!!!! Jamaican ska!!!!" I said in his ear dancing around with him as he laughed. I lived to listen to these old songs while cooking and dancing around now I have a little mini me who enjoyed it.

He screamed at my kisses in his chubby neck as he smiled leaning in and kissing my cheek back. My eyes flooded with tears.

Then I realized that I would do anything for my little boy. The life I gave birth to. I looked at him and I felt blessed and lucky. I felt so proud. I'm his mother. I'm this sweet kind little boys mother.

Near dinner time I shared our dinner my huge plate and his little blue plate of spegatti and chicken and a small amount of garlic bread I got a call coming in on my phone. I glanced at it confused at who could be calling me off of a unsaved number and why w

"Hello? I picked it up confused as I dropped my hands to my hips.

"Vanessa? A Richard man how you do? I heard Richard's voice. I walked around in confusion and slightly fuming, these people laughed at me while Millie was cheating and had the nerves to be calling asking me how I'm doing.

Thank goodness by the grace of god I'm doing fine

"Me alright Richard how you do? I asked him softly as I folded my hands watching Emilio play, and I smiled.

"Alright eno we alright and ting you nahh cyar mi cousin come make me see him me see picture a him him look like him father eehman? Cyar the baby come make we see him grandma been a ask me if tell you" he told me. But Mrs.emmerson has been calling me everyday and I've been ignoring the calls.

Millie told me fair and square he didn't want anything to do with my baby boy and I'm not going to force any man to be a father to my baby. I was planning on putting him in child support and I didn't want to have to do that. I didn't believe that a man who knew he got me pregnant would be that evil to his own flesh and blood. But now I definitely will be putting him on child support.

"Him father don't want me around-

"That nuh true as a matter a fact a him me a call you bout. Him sick, bad bad"

"Sick our right now him have immune problem. Him cya walk now fi weeks him over there a vomit and cya move" he told me. My heart dropped immediately and my knees got weak. My heart broke and tears swell up my eyes. I never felt nothing like it before. It was somebody just told me something that destroyed my life. I felt fear and everything in one. When I was able to get my self together I cleared my throat trying to act like I didn't care.

"And why you a call me a tell me that for? Millie have him gyal dem and you know all of them. Him have Marissa Gina Victoria name nuh know why you a tell me-

"Vanessa you know a you a him baby mo-

"Look here nuh mek me cuss rass pan the SATURDAY ya yuh here?

"LEAVE OFFA MI BOMBOBLOODCLAAT PHONE BOUT ME A HIM BABY MOTHER A ONLY WHEN HIM SICK UNU REMEMBER ME???? Millie run me like dawg Millie nahh take care of the baby Millie leave me pan road side when mi water buss Millie nuh come a the hospital me affi BEGGGGGGGG him fi sign the birth certificate Millie don't want nothing fi do with me Millie ever even talk to Emilio or even hold him and you ago come call my phone bout him sick???????????

"The whole a unu fi guh-look here today a mi SABATH!!!!" I shouted into the phone hanging up. I was so furious. I stood there crying my eyes out as I sat on the floor by the back window putting my head into my thighs crying.

I sat there crying as I looked at my baby seen the same sad face looking at me. Seeing me cry started to make him cry I walked over to him picking him up and kissing my sweet baby.

I fed him his dinner and put him to sleep softly feeding him a bottle of warm milk for bed. When he fell asleep I placed him into his little crib and he snuggled to sleep I took a shower and washed my self

Breaking down into more tears.

I hated Millie for everything he put me through but I couldn't imagine losing him.

I did my skin care and got out the bathroom going down stairs by the veranda as I sat down taking in some fresh air.  I called Kayla complaining to her about it hoping she would somehow tell me to go help him because deep in my heart that's what I wanted to do. But she told me I shouldn't go because he has family and plus he completely threw away me and my son.

But I still care about the man my son looked like even though we are not together and even if he wanted to we could never get back together.

I called back the unsaved number and Richard picked up.

"How sick him be?