Toman's Catphrodite (Book 2 of Toman's Black Cat)

Wished in a Dream

Y/n's POV

Where am I? I was just with...

"Hello again, dear one!" The sudden voice in the dark expanse made me scream but when I turned to see someone I knew I hadn't met, somehow it felt as though I had. "I've come to give you a choice."

"A choice?" Even though the statement was vague, I didn't feel any fear. "A choice for what?"

The being smiled softly. "I'm sure you've sensed something is amiss in your life here, yes?" The smile changed to concern. "Everyone is holding onto their bonds but their bond is their love for you. However, your mind seems to be trying to remember why you're bonded instead of allowing yourself to bond without worry."

I stared at the being with wide eyes and confusion. "Does this have to do with...why everyone feels so familiar?" Saying the words out loud filled me with hope and sadness all at once and the more I tried to think about why, the less it made sense.

"Even know, you're mind is trying to find reasoning for what it shouldn't be able to recall. My choice is that I can grant you safe access to what you're trying to remember. I should warn you, it may come at a cost."

"A cost?" I squeaked in fear.

What cost could there possibly be just for remembering something I can't?

"Some things are meant to only be endured once, dear one." The words made my blood run cold. I did my best to run through my options but the only question I could think of that was most important to me, was just one simple one. "Should you choose to be enlightened, it may intensify the feelings you've been feeling already." The being let out a sad sigh before continuing. "All of them."

If I remember....will this help the ones I love?

I began to open my mouth but shut it quickly as another thought occurred.

Is this why Mikey is so scared? That I'll remember something bad?

Did I do something bad to him?

Or....did he do something bad to me?

I played scenes in my mind of everyone I had met, the feelings that came with each person was new but not really at the same time.

I want to know why I feel so connected to each of them.

What kind of person was I before....?

....and why does it hurt so much when I try to remember?

If I choose to remember just because I want to....is it something I really need to remember?

Will it change how I feel if I do remember?

I let my heart settle on my final decision, looking up at the being with calm determination and a confident  smile.

"I choose..."