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eleven ii

ACTUALLY YOU KNOW WHAT

I PROBABLY WONT EVEN JOIN REGARDLESS

I DONT WANT TO FIGHT AGAINST AI
I DONT WANT EXTRA LIVES
I DONT WANT TO JUST BE A GRAIN OF SAND IN THE SANDPIT OF CONTESTANTS

I JUST WANTED TO BE IN THE ORIGINAL TWOW.

I JUST WANTED TO BE A PART OF THEM.

I JUST WANTED THE SAME RULES AS THE ORIGINAL HAD.

NO EXTRA LIVES
NO AIS
NOTHING NEW

I WANTED IT TO STAY THE SAME
I WANTED IT TO STAY PURE
I WANTED IT TO STAY HOW IT WAS

NOT TO CHANGE SO DRASTICALLY IT DIDNT EVEN FEEL LIKE TWOW ANYMORE

...

god, i feel wrong for saying all of this...

i thought i'd be happy.
i thought it's be fine.
i thought i'd be excited.
i thought it'd be amazing.
i thought it'd all be perfect.

but i guess that's not how i am.

BUT IT SHOULD BE.

I SHOULD BE HAPPY
I SHOULD BE EXCITED
I SHOULD BE FINE

i hate how i feel
i hate how i feel
i hate how i feel

i hate how i think.
i hate how i think.
i hate how i think.

I HATE MY BRAIN
I HATE MY BRAIN
I HATE MY BRAIN

I HATE MYSELF.

WHY CAN'T I JUST BE HAPPY ABOUT THIS

I LOVE THE ORIGINAL
I LOVE THAT

SO WHY DON'T I LOVE EWOW

WHY

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY HWY YWH WHY WHWY WYWH WHW WHWY WHY

IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
IS THERE

HAVE I JUST LOST THE ABILITY TO GET EXCITED OVER ANYTHING I LIKE ANYMORE

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

WHY AM I LIKE THIS