potato randomly half-venting?

teehee pos vent go brrrr

inside of an attic, a doll lies there.
broken and devoted to its owners.
doing whatever they asked, and always cared.
and whenever their owners needed them, they'd be there.

after all, that's what a doll's supposed to do.
it's supposed to support, love, and care for you.
it's supposed to make the world seem less blue.
it's supposed to keep you happy, and maybe itself, too.
but what if i told you something "cool"?
that will completely change how you feel about this doll.
maybe terrify you, concern you, and all.
that this doll was once as human as you.

she had light in her eyes, but the world blinded her.
she had dreams in her mind, but the world crushed her.
she had hope in her heart, but the world broke her.
she had a soul, but the world killed that.

and now she lives, as an empty husk.
just for a few people she really loves.
and truth is, they're all really enough.
to make her want to see one more sun.

but she's had several owners before,
some were nice, some rotten to the core.
some kept her tidy, some left her torn.
well, let's find out some more...

one friend back in primary,
was rather nice and friendly,
but everyone would teasingly
joke about you two dating... see?

but in year seven, they forgot about those times.
for the most part, and moved on with their lives.
however, that made her realise,
that nothing can last forever, right?

year seven, it seemed like heaven.
with a best friend you haven't forgotten.
but not everyone's a good person,
and sadly, you were a victim

of being blinded by her fake "care"
when you know it really wasn't there,
you just wanted to be in a pair.
oh, isn't life unfair?

she abandons you in an art classroom,
and pops your heart like a balloon,
leaving you sat there, wondering,
"what could i even do...?"

she wandered alone for a while,
without anyone else to make her smile,
when all of a sudden, a light shined
in her empty black eyes.
it was like the sun's light
had came down on her that night,
and then, looking through a device,
she spotted someone in the craziest place.

a really hecking terrible bfdi story.

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ok
so like

if the doll metaphor feels weird, then it's bc i... don't really have a consistent personality! i js adopt what's most convienent for me right then, and roll with it-

and i also kinda... don't like existing in this world much lol, so yeah, i'm lifeless, like a doll.

and all the "owners" basically mean my best friends/favourite people over these past few years, each in chronological order

tl;dr: i'm a bland selfless doll that (sometimes) only continues to live for a select few people, and has had several best friends in the past lost to time