potato randomly half-venting?

black holes.

do you ever feel like there's a black hole inside of you, slowly eating away at everything you know about yourself?

because i do.

it feels like there's nothing inside of me. i'm just an empty husk of a person.

whenever someone says anything to do with looking inside yourself, i see nothing.

i've never really brought this up before... but i feel empty inside, like something's missing.

i don't know what, but i know other people have it.

maybe it's a real personality, not just viewing myself as "that one a fangirl".

like literally... that's all i know about myself.

i don't think i'm anything else. i don't think there IS anything else to me.

the hole's moved a bit - it started off around my stomach, but now i feel it in my chest.

i just feel like something is missing... but i don't even know what.

could it be purity? have to thank my old friend groups for that. seriously, wattpad might be the first time i've been in an online friend group without SOME form of drama.

sometimes i wonder if that will last.

but... i wish i knew what it was like to know myself.

i don't even know my favourite colour. thought it was purple for a while, but... i like them all.

heh...

i don't know if this void can ever be filled, but whatever. "just leave him", you say. so i'll apply that logic here.

if i leave it, maybe then it'll go away.

...

you see how idiotic that is?

eh, at least i have a. and some of the first real friends i've ever had, real life or not.

maybe they're what fills the void.