potato randomly half-venting?

that's when you know.

you know you're losing yourself when you begin to dread having your favourite lessons.

i just... i'm not as good at maths as everyone likes to think i am, but i feel like i have to get everything right... we all know what happens when you make even the smallest mistake.

it just sucks atp... i don't even want to bother with anything anymore, i just want to rot away until the summer months are over.

i hate it... i hate feeling so gross while i try to sleep, i hate the feeling that the break's so close yet too far away, i hate watching my classmates seem sick of each other.

please just make it stop.

i feel so self-destructive lately... it's like i WANT to suffer at this point.

maybe it's because i can finally feel like i'm actually in control of myself for once, and not just someone playing with me like i'm some sort of puppet.

that's all i want right now: control.