potato randomly half-venting?

(PS) (part 4) even though i loved you.

(inspired by the maretu song with the same name)

i loved you.
i inspired you.
i befriended you.
i trusted you.

but you broke it.

you whined about her and what she did to you, and tore you from the community forever.
but have you thought about what you might've done to her?
this community will never accept you again, never.
and now i regret every second we shared together.

i'm not your fucking therapist, i'm a 15-year-old demigirl.
one that invited you into her world.
but they felt like they recognized you, that's what i then told.
but then i recalled a reddit post that's now years old.

that was you, wasn't it?
don't try to deny it.
you got yourself into this shit.
and now you act like you don't deserve this.
stop being a narcissist.
accept that this is how it now is.
you will never be allowed back in
not after what you did.

you can beg, cry and kneel
but nothing you do will have that appealed.
because you hurt several of us and how we feel.
just leave this community alone...

you know who you are.
you know this is how we part.
you know you broke my heart.
you know that we'll forever be apart.

it hurts to know that you wouldn't accept me for being myself.
i'm not hurting anyone this way, so why complain would your past self?

you hurt people in this community.
ACCEPT IT.

some of us won't forgive you easily.
ACCEPT IT.

your reputation will never be clean.
ACCEPT IT.

i'm standing at her side,
you need to sympathize.
but you'll never be satsified,
YOU JUST WANT PEOPLE TO FOLLOW YOU BLIND.

you just want someone to throw a pity party with over the controversy you dragged yourself into.
"hOw CoUlD sHe Do ThAt To YoU????" that's what you want to hear, don't you?
well no, truth is, she's not cruel.

she was hurt from your bullshit beliefs about trans people.

and now i'm hurt too.

i loved you.
i inspired you.
i befriended you.
i trusted you.

and now, thanks to you
none of those are true.

you betrayed this entire community.
and i don't want to hear your pleas
about how "tHiS iSn'T wHaT iT sEeMs!!!!!"
you now mean NOTHING to me.

...

this is how this chapter ends.
one which my opinion on is regret
and something i wish i could forget
but as i'll side with the rest of them...
goodbye, my ex-friend.