potato randomly half-venting?

"happy" new year.

that moment when you realise that...

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you have genuinely not felt excitement for anything since ewow was announced.

i wasn't excited for christmas.
and i'm not excited for the new year.

i can't feel anything anymore, and i don't know why.

nobody even brought up that it was new years too, and that made it worse.

i'm becoming nothing.

i legit gave up trying to sleep because i kept crying.

i can't do this much longer.

i want to be happy and excited for things again.

you know what, if it keeps me from thinking about it...

then i'll pull an all nighter.

just so i can be happy.

i'm emotionally tired of feeling nothing.

...

happy new year.