Yellow Roses

Chapter 18: Carrie

I woke up this morning feeling absolutely horrible. I know today is the day me and Liz visit Planned Parenthood together to start my abortion. It's so depressing to me that I don't even want to go to school. However, I know I've got to.

I sat up from my bed and popped another Zofran I was able to get from my mother. As I was walking to the bathroom to get ready for school, I could hear my dad snoring in his bedroom.

It feels good to know my dad is back for the next 3 months before he gets deployed again. I have missed him so much, and even though I was going through a lot last week for Christmas, it was made up for after spending time with my parents together again for the first time in a year.

After I took my shower and brushed my teeth, I walked back to my room and thought about Kevin while I decided what to wear. Ugh. I guess at some point I'm going to have to run into him at school. We haven't talked since he dropped me off at my house, and I think it would be best to leave it that way.

After putting on my outfit, I headed downstairs to fix myself some cereal while my mom was brewing coffee. I wanted to avoid conversation about school, but that wasn't going to happen.

"Are you excited to go back to school and see everyone again?" She asked. I cringed a bit while pouring my milk.

"Yeah, I'm excited." I said blandly. "That doesn't sound convincing." She responded in a chuckle.

I sat my bowl down and started to eat. "I'm just ready for school to be over. I want to move on and start a new chapter in my life."

She poured herself a cup of coffee and sat across from me at the table.

"You do need to start thinking about college, Carrie." She said, I put another spoonful of cereal in my mouth before responding. "I know I want to be a nurse. I will apply for scholarships and universities in a couple of months. I want to live out the rest of my senior year first."

She sat up from the table and grabbed her car keys. "Yeah well," She started to say as I sat up to wash my bowl. "Don't be too distracted now. Your future is important."

How ironic of her to say that.

After dropping me off at school, I walked towards Angel's locker where the girls are usually hanging out before the first bell.

As I approached the group, I noticed a new face standing amongst them, it was Sapphire.

"Oh hello!" I said cheerfully. "You must be Sapphire. I'm so happy to meet you." She gave me a nervous smile and responded with a "You too." comment. Angel shot me a look that confused me, but I decided to ignore it.

"Let's hope the second half of our senior year is going to be great." I continued, trying to liven up the odd vibe. "I'm excited to see how this will go."

"How the hell are you so excited to be back at school?" Ava asked harshly. "I mean, this place sucks ass, I can't wait to graduate." She continued to complain.

"I totally agree, Ava." Angel pitched in. "But you might as well keep a positive attitude if you want to stay sane here."

I have noticed Ava has been extra bitchy lately. I'm not sure what's gotten into her.

I saw Sapphire slip her hand into Angel's, which made me feel so happy for her. "She's right." Sapphire added. "That's how I try to get through all of my struggles in life is to stay optimistic about everything; you know, to see the brighter side of things."

Ava laughed quietly to herself. "Yeah yeah. Okay you're right, Counselor Carter." She responded teasingly.

The bell for first period rang, and before I even had the chance to walk to my class, I saw Kevin walk by. He looked at me and nervously looked away, which sent a surge of panic into me.