Yellow Roses

Chapter 6: Carrie

I wake up to sunlight creeping through my curtains, perfectly in the center of my eyes, nearly blinding me. I look around my pale yellow walls before reaching over to my nightstand and grabbing my phone.

The time is 7:03am, and it's Sunday. I have a missed text message from Liz.

Liz: You can't keep avoiding me girl, I need the details! Even Angel and Ava aren't answering their phones.

Liz: Well goodnight. I'm assuming your parents took your phone too. I'll see you at school Monday.

I blinked my eyes repeatedly trying to think about how early I must have knocked out last night, considering those texts were sent around 8pm. I never fall asleep that early.

Then it hit me. I was so hungover I lied to my mom I was sick and needed to rest up for the night.

Worried I'd wake up Liz, I decided to text her back later. I tried falling back asleep but had no luck. So I instead decided to get up and do my morning routine of a shower, brushing my teeth, and making my bed.

As I stepped into the shower, I thought about Ava's party and how shit faced I was. All I remembered was waking up on her couch to dozens of random people inside I hardly recognized. My head was spinning and I felt sick.

I squeezed shampoo into my hands and looked down to see bruises on my arms.

Wow, now things are starting to come back.

I promised Kevin I would hang out with him later that night, and forgot because we decided to throw that party instead. When I woke up, I saw missed calls and texts from him so I invited him over. It took some convincing since he doesn't enjoy big crowds, but he eventually pulled through.

I lathered up my hair and continued to wash myself.

I had no idea where Ava was, and saw Liz and Ava on the loveseat across from me conversating. I remember walking to the front door and waiting for Kevin to arrive, which he soon did. I must have been really feeling the effects of the alcohol, because I kissed him as soon as he came through the door. We didn't even find a couch. I wanted to kiss him and didn't care who saw.

I finished up my shower and continued my reflection of that night as I stepped out to dry off and brush my teeth.

"I'm so glad you're happy to see me, but I should drink a bit first to be on the same level as everyone around here." I remember him saying, before I spotted Ava going up the stairs with ... Derek Hamlin?

"Shit." I managed to say out loud in a chuckle. I guess she finally got the boy she has been dreaming about since the 7th grade.

As I continued brushing my teeth, I remembered the final moments. I sat back up after I noticed I collapsed on the floor after trying to kiss him. I took maybe a few steps towards the kitchen before the vomit started to come out.

I stopped brushing due to the embarrassment and grossness. I spit out my toothpaste and walked back into my bedroom to find an outfit for the day.

I don't remember much of what happened after that, things started to get blurry. I briefly remember Kevin walking me up the stairs to reach the toilet, but I kept falling. I remember me crying about how embarrassed I was, and him telling me it was fine, that he just wanted to make sure I was okay.

As I was getting dressed I felt myself cringe remembering that moment. I'm so embarrassed again. I don't know when he left, and I remember the next memory was Angel waking me up to help Ava clean her house.

After I was finished getting ready I sat back on my bed and grabbed my phone. I began scrolling through my messages and missed calls, but Kevin has not texted or called me once yesterday after the fact.