Don't Let Me Drown (DISCONTINUED)

We meet again.

Briar

Seven whole years had past since I had last heard from Lycan. Alex had hurt him so bad after what he had told him and sent him, it made me feel worse because I had let Alex manipulate me into have sex with him because I was feeling vulnerable. Things have changed. Everything changed.

Beep-Beep-Beep-
My alarm clock sounded..I groaned "Five more minutes." I tried to reach for the Snooze button but ended up falling on to my cold apartment floor.
"Shit." I mumbled. I lifted myself up and grabbed a cigarette of my night stand. I stretched and made my way to the kitchen, looking at the clock. Good thing I was .my own boss, I owned a smoothie place downtown, I liked it, I met so many people and my smoothies made them happy.

I yawned and made some coffee, I sat at my bar and looked at the news, I looked down for a moment and noticed something shiny on the floor. I picked it up and my heart dropped. It was the necklace that I had in high school. But where was the other one? I was sure Lycan had given it back hadn't he? I ran to the closet and grabbed the box of stuff Lycan given me over the years and vice versa. The other necklace was no where to be found. I ran downstairs, to my car hoping to find it there, realizing I had no pants on, I came back up and put on some. Where the hell could it be?
I sighed giving up the frantic search.
I checked the time. The clock read:8:55. I jumped up and got dressed,grabbed my keys, phone,locked up the place and got in the car. I felt a bit happier as I turned on the radio and heard my favorite song. Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil:
...
I breathe you in with smoke in the backyard lights
We used to laugh until we choked into the wasted nights
It was the best time of my life, but now I sleep alone
So don't don't don't wake me up 'cause my thrill is gone
And the sunsets turning red behind the smoke
Forever and alone
Yeahhhhh
You've gone and sewn me to this bed, the taste of you and me
Will never leave my lips again, under the blinding rain
(Blinding rain!)
I wanna hold your hand so tight, I'm gonna break my wrist
And when the vultures sing tonight, I'm gonna join right in
I'll sing along
'Cause I don't know any other song
Woah, oh no
I'll sing along, but I'm barely hanging on
No, I'm barely hanging on
By the time you're hearing this I'll already be gone
And now there's nothing to do, but scream at the drunken moon
This isn't fair (no) don't you try to blame this on me
My love for you was bulletproof, but you're the one who shot me
And goddamn it, I can barely say your name
So I'll try to write it and fill the pen with blood from the sink
Woahhh Ohhhh
But, don't just say it, you should sing my name
Pretend that it's a song 'cause forever it's yours
And we can sing this on the way home
I'll sing along
'Cause I don't know any other song
Woah, oh no
I'll sing along, but I'm barely hanging on
No, I'm barely hanging on
By the time you're hearing this I'll already be gone
And, now, there's nothing to do, but tear my voice apart
Nothing to do, and scream at the drunken moon!
Yeeaahhh!
(end)

I sung along, screaming the lyrics with some heart felt emotion I didn't know I had. I pulled up to the job, one customer outside, as I turned in the parking, a little boy ran in front of my car, I slammed on my breaks, holy shit. I waited for him to go by and continued on to my parking space, getting out the car immediately running to the kid's aid. "Oh my god. Are you okay son?" I asked getting down to his level. The little boy was at least four or five,he sniffed I think it scared him.
"Yes I'm okay." The boy answered just as a guy came running up. " Oh god Matty." He said picking him up. "Are you okay sweetie?"
The boy nodded. I looked at the guy, he was hot, like hot hot, mhm. The guy looked at me, he was green eyed and perfect, he smiled at me, he looked familiar. "Hey I'm sorry. He just runs everywhere. I should have been watching him" he said sadly. I looked at him as I opened the shop inviting them in, I set up shop and let the boy and his father sit at a booth, "Here you go. It's a special blueberry smoothie just for you." I said handing the little boy a cup smiling.
"Wait...Briar? Briar Pxyis?" The guy asked. My eyes met his, then I knew, it was Lycan...my Lycan and he was wearing the necklace. My heart dropped,I filled with anger immediately. I didn't know whether to kiss him or punch him,I left the store and he followed. "Briar...I'm sorry. I just thought you were better off with out me." He said stopping me.
I rolled my eyes and got in my car and left I couldn't believe this.

Lycan
I watched him pull away, I felt Matthew grab my hand. "Daddy who was that?" He asked innocently. I sighed and sat on the bench next to the shop, I'm shaking. I can't stop now...goddamn it not now not in front him... I hold on to the bench...and try to stop myself...
For once I do. I think I can finally handle it
"Come on, let's drop you off at Auntie Marci's. She brought you some toys for your birthday I heard." I said smiling big. Matty jumped up for joy, and ran to the car hoping in his car seat.

At a quarter to nine, I show up at his apartment. I knocked on the door doing a quick check of myself, I was wearing his old plaid shirt and black jeans with some converses. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door, I swallowed hard as I heard footsteps. I checked my hair one last time causing me to drop my phone.. I saw the door openn, I looked up to see him shirtless, his dragon tattoo looked amazing, I noticed his haircut and that he smoked now, he leaned against his door as he lit a cigarette. "Hi...um is it alright if I come in?" I asked trying not to stare at his abs. He nodded and let me come through, closing the door puffing on that cigerette. The apartment was beautiful and just his style, everything was done in dark blue and silver, he had a box on his coffee table and was playing my favorite All Time Low song; A Love Like War (feat. Vic Fuentes).
"So what's up?" He said going into the kitchen as I sit down on his soft blue couch. It was so comfortable.
" I wanted to apologize...for what I did. I want you to know that Isabelle changed. She felt horrible for what she did. I forgave her, and I was happy." I said fumbling with my hands. He sat down across from me, looking at me. " You mean to tell me that you were happy with that bitch?! After what happened to you!!!" He yelled. I flinched and started to cry he was scaring me, I never seen him so angry....

" We...got married. And had a child...She's died giving birth to him..." He stopped and looked at me, "Wh-What?" He said looking at me, "She's dead...she died three years ago." I said softly. Briar rested his hand on my shoulder, I felt like crying all over again, that's when I felt it , a flashback. They're worse now I tried to pull myself away from it. But it was too late.
I saw her face, she was laying down in the hospital bed. She had just had Matty, I smiled as she slept watching her for a little while, "Lycan....I can't raise him. I'm a horrible woman. I can't stay with you anymore..." She pulled her plug causing her to go in shock and a long beep woke me up from my sleep. The rush of doctors and nurses scared me , I was escorted out the room....
"I love you...please don't die."