Don't Let Me Drown (DISCONTINUED)

The Past

Lycan

The whole car ride home consisted of us looking at each other at every stop light. As if we didn't know how to speak. My phone and wallet rested in my lap as I skipped the songs on the radio.
"You never answered my question. Why don't you love me?" I asked. His face turned red as he drove. The shadows of lights and dimly lit buildings passing over us.
"I love you. But I'm just afraid."

The rest of the car ride is silent again. Eventually, we make it to his place. He lifted the potted plant and unlocked the backdoor. It felt like a movie, how we were sneaking in, all wet, and no excuse.
I took off my shirt immediately along with my pants and put them in the dryer. His mom considered me to be a second son so I didn't care about walking around half naked. I grabbed a random shirt and made my way to his room.
Briar wrapped a towel around his waist as I came in. "Is that my shirt?" I looked up, my eyes meeting his. But then I saw the rest and couldn't help but stare. That little peek I had saw of his chest a few days ago was nothing compared to the whole thing. He even had a tattoo on his hip that I knew nothing about.
"Hello?" He waves his hand in front of my face.
"Huh. Oh Sorry, yeah this is your shirt. I just grabbed it from the laundry room." I said as he turned around and took the towel off to get dressed. I covered my eyes.

He smirked and moved my hands down. "It's okay if you see me naked." I nodded.  I looked around his room. It felt like I hadn't been here in ages when it had only been maybe a few months because of his parents getting divorced. "Your room looks different." I said looking around at everything. Everything looked like it belonged to some tough guy. Not a soft guy like Briar.

"I'm sorry. I hurt you." He said as he closed his door. I sat down on the edge of his bed, he turned off his lamp and got under his blankets after laying a pillow at the foot of the bed for me. We always slept like this. I didn't get under the blankets until I really wanted to. I could tell he was looking at me but I can't see his eyes which kind of upsets me cause I love looking at them. " Why did you do it...." I asked looking at him He sighed and looked at his hands. "Because I wanted to make you see I'm not good for you." He whispered.
"She'd made sure that you think about her forever. What if she comes back and I can't protect you huh? I'll go crazy. " I tried to hold back tears but I couldn't he was right and I knew what she had done to me was wrong...three whole years of it and I was too afraid to stop it. Briar leaned over and hugged me tight, "I'm so sorry Briar. For everything. I just I don't know anymore..." I sobbed. He held me tighter and layed back with me in his arms as I cried like a baby.
"Shh....Lycan tell me ....what happened. I wanna know I can take it. It's time you told me the truth. What during the three years you left?" He whispered in my ear.
I sighed closed my eyes and started to talk, I remember it all.
----(flashback)

It all felt like a dream until she kissed me. I was just getting home from school when my mom told me she'd be going out while my dad was at work and that her best friend Isabelle was going to watch me. Everything was fine.
"Lycan! Come down for dinner!" She yelled. I rushed down stairs to see no food on the table, I looked at her and she smiled wickedly.
" Your my dinner. Come here." She pulls me close.
"N...no. This is wrong." I kept shaking my head pulling away.
Isabelle tighten her grip on my shoulder while she made me touch her breasts. All sorts of sounds escaped her, and sadly my body responded to them even though I didn't wanna. Hours later the torture came, she cut my skin with her knife watching blood ooze from me, she would make little marks here and there as I scream silently in pain, I couldn't struggle or move because at this point I was drugged and tired from the sex she made me do earlier. Finally I passed out, the next thing I knew I woke up in a bed stained with my blood.
"Oh goody! Your awake." She smiles.
I look away.
"Dont worry. Your not dead. I took care of everything so you have nothing to worry about."
I want to cry but cant, by taking care of everything she meant she had told my parents I ran away and they actually believed that. It dawned on me that I would die here...the next three years of my life were absolute hell. Isabelle tortured me and raped me twice a day everyday. Then everything changed.
"Lycan honey do you love me?" She whispers. . I gulp.
"Y....yes." Isabelle is laying on top of me as we sit on her couch.
" I love you."
She hugs me.
"I love you too Isabelle. But can I please go home."
She is silent.
"Kiss me now. Please.... I need you"....
She grabbed her gun.
"Isabelle! Put it down. Please " She continued to load the gun.
" You can't."
She turns the gun to me and aims, I get up and take off for the door as she laughs hysterically, I open it and run as fast my feet take me.
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I quickly opened my eyes as soon as my lips stopped moving, Briar stared at me which scared me even more than usual. The past was ruining my life and I hated it. " My god..I... Dont know what to say. Just your so goddamn beautiful." He whispered with me still in his arms, his voice was deep and sounded sweet against my ear. I snuggled into his chest and he slid his fingers across my thighs and up to my boxers, he rests his hand there.
I trembled a bit and let him make circles on my thigh.