Stupid Wife- Lembre-se de Nós (English Edition) by Nathalia Sodré.

Chapter 34:Ready

Everything seems out of place.

That's my first thought, when I wake up and realize that I'm not in the room I share with Valentina. Dread begins to grow inside me when I realize that I know this place. I look around, I get even more scared, knowing what's happening, and I run to the bathroom just to confirm. It cannot be. I touch my face with my hands, not wanting to believe the image that is reflected in front of me. I'm young again, back in the past. It's still night, I can't believe it.

No, please. No! No! I repeat over and over and leave the bathroom with my hands in my hair. My heart is about to rip out of my chest, my breathing is getting heavy because I'm feeling out of breath. It's not possible that the last few months were just a fantasy in my head.

- "Did you see that Valentina left the ICU?"

My sister suddenly enters my room, flustered and, at the same time, with a huge smile on her face. I am confused, assimilating what she had just told me.

- "She what?" my voice barely comes out; it feels like there are thorns in my throat.

- "She'll be fine. I said everything would be fine with the surgery."

- "What do you mean? What are you talking about? What happened to her?"

Carol looks at me, without understanding, holding my shoulders to analyze my face. I feel like crying. I don't know what happened then or now, I'm terrified. I want everything to go back to normal.

- "Valentina was in a motorcycle accident last week. Are you Okay? You are looking like you are about to faint. Luiza!" I hear my sister's voice get distant and I don't know exactly when my vision went dark, but all I hear, before I fall forward, is her call.

Desperately searching for my breath, I rise up on the bed, panting and my body feels hot, as if I've just walked into a fire. I look around me, realizing that everything is dark. I turn on the light of my lamp and almost cry with relief when I look to the side and see the image of my sleeping wife, completely oblivious to my terror.

It was just a nightmare, thank goodness.

I swallow saliva, lie back down and get very close to her. Valentina is, as usual, with her hands under her pillow and her mouth slightly separated, and it is possible to hear her breathing coming out very soft and calm. So beautiful and so mine.

What a bad feeling to imagine that something had happened to her and that we were back in the past.

Looking at her now, after having been so afraid of not having her with me, I feel the intensity of the feeling I have for her. I always imagined that love was too difficult, but it turns out that she makes it seem so easy. It didn't take me long to fall in love with her again.

If I had to do it all over again a thousand times, I would love her all over again. It's inevitable. I remember hearing my father say several times that "If the person is destined for you, regardless of everything, you will find each other again, even if it means recognizing each other a thousand times." I am sure that, in this and the next lives, she and I will continue finding us. There's this thing that holds us together and it seems too strong to try to run. It's so easy to love her, it's gratifying to be hers and it's an honor to share our lives.

Valentina really knows me: the Luiza of the past, the present, the future and all the crazy things and fears that are in my head. She truly knows and loves me as I am, imperfections and perfections. Even in the past, when I didn't expect that I would be able to love someone so much and give myself completely to them, I always hoped for something like this. Today, I am grateful to have her with me, loving me and taking care of me.