I want to kiss him again and do much more, but I have to remind myself once again that we're both drunk. He doesn't mean what he says, he's just saying that to get me to fuck him and he'll ditch me, just like my last boyfriend.
"We shouldn't do this." I tell him, watching as he stands up straight.
I expect him to get angry as he stares at me, but he just nods. "Okay." With no other words, he steps past me into his apartment. I stand there for a few seconds, completely confused, before walking into mine.
He doesn't want to fall in love with me?
I sit down on my couch, staring down at my blank phone. He's just saying that because he's drunk. Oh my God, did I just makeout with him? And did I really love it? Fuck, he's so hot! Why is he so hot? Is it the height, the hair, the accent? Definitely not his personality... but it's honestly growing on me. When he's not being awful, I mean. Just the few minutes of the concert were so fun, both of us just laughing together. Yet, we were both drunk. He's only been nice to me drunk.
I really need to get a grip.
To distract myself, I change into pajamas and watch a movie, eventually falling asleep. I wake up to my phone buzzing and my head throbbing. I groan and try to ignore my phone, but it won't leave me alone, so I get up and grab it.
Sofia: HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO
Sofia: EVE. HADLEY.
Me: ?????????? girl I'm hungover as hellll let me sleep
Sofia: EXPLAIN THIS TO ME!!!!
Sofia: *Attached Link*
I click on the link, leading me to a news source website. There's an image right under the title, the picture showing Wilbur and I on the street last night. I cringe, able to see my tongue, even though the rest of the picture is a bit cute. There's another picture of us at the concert, me leaning against him as we laugh. We really look like a couple.
Me: You do remember I'm fake dating him right??
Sofia: Yeah but like FULL TONGUE????? Y'all are REALLY convincing me...
Me: We were just rlly drunk lol.
Me: And I couldn't resist he's so pretty it hurts me so bad that I can't have him but I also can't stand him but he's so sweet but he doesn't even want me so it doesn't matter!
Sofia: Oooooo so you're finally falling for him
Me: No.
Me: Maybe.
Me: If he was nice to me, absolutely. But he's not.
Sofia: You can make him act sweet 🤭 A guy who looks like that, lives right next to you, and is a famous musician is worthhhh it girl.
Me: Like I said, he doesn't even care for me
Sofia: If that was true would he make out with you like that???? Idc that it's a PR stunt, he's aware that y'all could just do a kiss on the cheek. Most fake couples don't do all that.
Me: Whateverrrrr shushhhhh don't feed into my delusions. I'm not pursuing him.
Sofia: There are COBWEBS up there babe
Me: SHUT UP!
I click my phone off with a grin and set it aside, forcing myself to get up. I take some pain killers with a glass of water, desperately thirsty.
As I lean against my counter, I just can't get Wilbur out of my mind. I need to know what he meant last night, if he was serious or just wasted. But what if he doesn't even remember and I embarrass myself?
At this point, I wish I rejected his relationship offer and just stuck with Blair. She's super sexy and cute, never mean to me, and just slightly strange. Better than being bullied.
Instead of letting myself be at peace, I stress myself out over the whole situation. To cope, I lie on the couch all day and rot, watching stupid movies and biting my nails to bits.
I think I officially hate the British.
