Hugging my stuffed animal rn brings a level of serotonin. My thoughts are of my car and the comfort it brings. the knowledge that it's perhaps the only place I'm truly safe and perhaps alone.
Perhaps there's a safety in staying alone. No one is there to hurt you. Say you're in the wrong. Bring you physical pain. Leave.
Ig I wonder what I was running from for so long. I thought enduring all that pain would bring me a sense of happiness. Putting up with it, for a greater cause.
Anyways just gotta wait for the rationalization to kick in again.
As always, yuck emotions.
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New beginnings p2
De TodoA chance to self discover and explore the inner dialogue that will help define my future self.
