New beginnings p2

Diary of an overnight worker

. It's been a year. Wahoo.
Soooo here's my analysis on the position.

I remember my parents saying I wouldn't be able to maintain it. But I genuinely like it. I feel like it's the perfect job for my personality. But I also know it's time to transition perhaps into something better so I can realign myself with what's important (school) and perhaps a career that would appreciate my talents more. Considering my store manager still hates me.

But anyways the pros.
Not getting sick
Minimal human interaction
No traffic
No sun
Great pay
Friends

Cons
On weekends I oversleep
No social life
Overly tired w/ school
I hate the sun now
Vampire

Yeah mainly my sleep schedule is just out of sync recently. I miss the sun. I miss going out tbh. Like in many ways it helped me in all the ways I wanted it to. Like less people interaction and not going out to spend money. But it's exasperating my social anxiety and fear of people ig now. And makes me hella lonely if I really think about it. It's like I want to go out on the weekends and I'm sure I'd be able to if I really wanted to but I shun interaction and connection now because I forgot what it's like and I fear losing it.

This old lady asked me if I had friends from highschool still and I said no and realized I only talk to love interests and family. And well somewhere in that I realized love interests might just be there to fill the void where friendship should be. It's hard to make friends tho. It's hard to trust people as well. I'm so used to filling a role that I think they need in their life so they'll keep me around. It's lowkey sad.