The Challenge: Ride or Dies

Episode 12

We just got back from Nurys' elimination and I am fuming at how the whole situation happened. These people claim to care about Nelly and I but they don't give a shit about us. If we somehow win this week, I will do whatever I can to protect Nelly and cause chaos in the other team. They are too comfortable right now and I want it to stop. I find myself in the same position every season with people coming for my allies and leaving me as the lone wolf and it honestly adds fuel to the fire. I think what sucks more now than any other season is I thought this would be different.

I feel like out of all the pairings, Tori and I are the only ones that are not actually ride or dies. Tori could give two shits if I make it to the end with her and has shown me that our friendship means nothing to her. I wish I could say I feel the same but I cannot. I feel like I owe Tori this win because of the chance she took on me four years ago. I have gotten to do so much because of her and Jordan's act of kindness and if I can help her win her first Challenge season as my farewell gift to her, then I will leave the Challenge fulfilled. In order to do that, I am going to have to play dirty and it starts today.

This morning is my scheduled phone call with Christian, Curran, and Kylie and I am so excited to see my kids because they are a big reason why I am stepping away from reality tv. I want to be able to spend time with my kids and Christian more. Don't get me wrong, I am not going away from reality tv, but I think it's time to give someone else a chance to win. Plus, I am finishing up the last few details of our wedding happening in a few months. I walk into the room and the first thing I see is my babies' beautiful faces.

Curry: Dada!

Kylie: Pappa!

Syn: Hi babies! How are you both?

Curry: Good. When are you coming home?

Syn: Soon Curry. I promise.

Kylie: When you get home, I want to have a princess tea party.

Syn: We can do whatever you want.

Christian: Hey babe!

Syn: Babe! How are you doing?

Christian: These two rugrats are driving me crazy!

Curry: Tais-toi vieil homme!

Syn: Curry! Sois gentil!

Christian: It's not fair that our kids can speak three languages at a little over a year old.

Syn: I am just happy our kids are happy and healthy.

Christian: They really do miss you, but I miss you more.

Syn: I know babe. How's Charlotte?

Christian: So, about that...

Syn: What's going on?

Christian: There are talks about me being traded.

Syn: Traded? To where?

Christian: It is looking like San Francisco. What do you think?

Syn: What do you think? It is your career on the line.

Christian: You are my world and I need your opinion on the move. What do you think from a business standpoint?

Syn: Honestly?

Christian: Yeah.

Syn: I say go for it. You are already friends with Kittle and Bosa and it would be closer to your parents.