The Challenge: Ride or Dies

Episode 16

We just saw Amber and Chauncey finally leave the game thanks to the brilliant performance by Jordan and Aneesa. Although I won with Amber before, she is someone I cannot trust. If I am being perfectly honest, the only one I trust from Big Brother on any show I have ever done is Faysal. One thing I know about Faysal is that he cannot lie to me no matter how hard he tries to. Josh has lied before, Kaycee, Amber, Liz, Julia, and all of the cast of Big Brother Canada has. Even Da'Vonne has, which is why I no longer talk to her. She played a big part in why I am here, but after Big Brother All-Stars, I decided to cut ties with anyone from Big Brother.

Do I feel bad about doing that? Not really. I am fine with the friends from Australian Survivor and the Titans/Flash because when I needed them most, they were there for me no matter what. I thought I would get over it by coming back here, but I am honestly not over the whole ordeal with CT and the people from War of the Worlds 2. I haven't talked to Hunter in a while and I do not know if I want to. I think the only Challengers I will talk to consistently after I retire are Nany, Bananas, Jordan, Tori, Devin, Wes, Faysal, Aneesa, Kam, and Leroy. 

I have an idea for how the finale will go from my perspective and have one final surprise for everyone. I do want to get to the final with Tori and make sure she gets her first win once and for all. I decide to go outside and see Bananas and Moriah working out. I am sitting with Jordan when we both realize that he is still around while having won seven titles. I realize that if Tori and I win, we have to put in one of our friends. If we do not win this challenge, we are going to be thrown in.

I decide to use this time to bond with Tori more and have a spa day with her. I want her to feel as close to me as possible and I think this is what we need to secure our spot in the final coming up. I voice my plan for throwing in Nany and Bananas in if we win but Tori is not as excited to hear it so I know I am going to have to approach this differently. I walk by Fessy's room and hear Moriah and Fessy talking about how they do not want us to win this upcoming daily. Moriah brings up the idea but Fessy does not shoot it down and this proves to me that I need to go with Tori on this vote.

I walk back to my room and get my Challenge gear on and begin my pre-daily prep by hitting the punching bag while I visualize a chess game. This works out my head and my body simultaneously while giving me something to distract myself from. I am tired of trusting people in this game and decide to go into what Ryan and X has called "Syn mode". I feel my pupils dilate and a wave of calm rush through my whole body. Tori gets me for the daily and leads me to the daily.

I see what appears to be an ice bath and two shadow boxes. TJ explains that the daily challenge, called Frozen Senseless, deals with us going to either side of the course and memorizing patterns. When we know the patterns, we have to sit in the bath and relay the information to our partners. Tori and I decide that I should be the person who going and finds the shapes of the patterns since I am good at explaining information to Tori. I have spent time in Canada for most of my life so I can deal with ice baths. This is Tori and I's challenge to lose.

TJ blows the horn and we speed to our respected stations where we have to first dig a hole big enough for us to get through. I decide to dig a hole big enough on both sides so I do not get stuck on my way back. Bananas and Ryan are out first on my side and I am right in the middle at three. I told her to remember the shapes by things that stick out to her. I get to the patterns and know this is going to be an easy challenge for myself. I get back right after Johnny does and sit in the water. The ice bath feels nice.

 I tell Tori to picture the middle box as one, the right box as two, and the left box as three, with box one have a plus on top and box 3 having a X on top. Box two has a left facing play button on it. I know that it is a triangle but Tori watches a lot of YouTube and movies so I know she will remember that better. I can tell that the other teams are struggling with the ice water while Tori and I are killing it. Tori gets my directions and starts heading back to her box.