My Riptide

Chapter 21: All ive wanted

River-

We've been stuck in the house all day. Basically the whole town had to stay indoors because of the storm. It doesn't rain much in Pedarshell and when it does it's not that fun.

I watch Peach text someone on her phone, not knowing who, I ask. She looks up at me and looks back at her phone.

"Just Hannah and my brother checking up on me, wondering were I am and stuff."

I nod as we both get an incoming call on our phones. We go to separate rooms and answer. It was my Mom.

"Son, I don't know what's gotten into you. YOUR THROWING YOUR WHOLE FUTURE AWAY! We try and try our hardest for you, your future, your life, but all you fucking care about is that town. You have became such a disappointment, not answering our calls, choosing parties over your college career-!"
She yells into the phone without hesitation. Her words sting worse than Dad's.

"Mom, please." I try.

"I'm not finished. How could you do this to us? Throw everything away! Why?"

"Mom I-." She cuts me off.

"Your going to end up just like him! I know that's what you are doing! How could you do this to yourself!? I don't understand how you could throw a dream away-!" I cut her off this time.

"What dream?! The one you and Dad want because that's bullshit Mom!"

"Stop being like that. We want it for you. It means a lot to this whole family and you know that! Your always the one to fuck everything up!" I clench my jaw as her last sentence comes attacking me like knives to my skin.

"No." I shake my head and run my fingers through my hair. The only thing good about going to college is that I'll be far away the both of them, but the worst thing about it is that I'll be even farther from Peach.

"Yes, I hope your fucking summer was what you wanted because that's the last of it. Your getting on that plane me and your father booked you and you are coming home in less than two weeks."

"No it wasn't, it wasn't what I wanted, but god knows if I get even close to what I want. It destroys you and dad that I want to chose my own life instead of some life pictured for me that only way you and dad want it. You don't have to prove to people that we are a good successful rich family just because of what the people think because of Gavin's death! People need to mind their fucking business and your not letting them! Get over your fucking selves! I want to go to college! I want an education! I want a supportive family! You should be proud of your son for making his own goals, life decisions, moving forward from Gavin's death. You should be proud! But I've never been asked a single time what I wanted. I want to live life the I want to then maybe I wouldn't become so disappointing. That's all I ever am right? I'm getting older and I don't need my parents telling me what to do or they're up my ass 24-7! What you think I came back for is the exact opposite of things I am here for, but you would never know that because you never listened to me." I throw my hands up in the air in disbelief and I feel my eyes start to sting.

I've spilt everything I've ever wanted to say to her and I know Dad is over hearing our conversation, he always is lingering around like he has nothing better to do.

"If it's not the parties or friends then what is it? What could honestly be more important than your college career, huh? What about that town is it that you keep running back to?" She says in serious tone. My throat tightens.

Peach. I wanted to blurt her name. I wanted to shout it, just to get it off my chest. And let myself and everyone know Im in love with her and I will go back, search, and wait for her for the rest of my life if I need to. But dragging her name into this conversation is unacceptable.