Just Unexpected (Emblem3 Fan-fic)

Chapter 7

The entire car ride back to the apartment I tried to keep my emotions in check. Or at least I tried to keep them from showing. But the fact that Tori kept asking questions (that I didn't know the answers too) over and over again made it even harder. After several minutes of questions I finally asked her to stop with the most even voice I could muster. She did, reluctantly. I know she wasn't trying to cause any harm but it wasn't making the thoughts in my head any easier to sort.

When we finally reached the apartment I immediately made my way into the upstairs bathroom. Locking the door behind me, I leaned against it. At first I felt nothing. I felt normal but after a few seconds memories that I wished I would forget returned and unwanted emotion washed over me.

Fear, anger, embarrassment and so many more.

Tear began to sting the sides of my eyes but I refused to let them fall. Shaking my head I willed myself to let go of the pain and fear but it wasn't enough. A few tears escaped and memories continued to flood my mind.

His angry hazel eyes staring straight into mine. The sting of his hand. The sound of his angry voice shouting.

I blinked hard as if it would help bury the memory back down. Unconsciously I placed my hands on my stomach to the far left. Beneath my shirt on that exact spot I knew my skin was ruined. Burned and cut; scarred. All because of him.

Sobs began to escape my mouth and a hand flew to my mouth to I tried and stop them.

Damn it. This shouldn't be happening!

“Kim...” I heard Tori's voice come through the other side of the door. Instantly I forced myself to be as quiet as I could. She didn't need to know how much of a mess I was at the moment. No one did. She waited for a reply but I didn't give her one.

“You know I'm here for you, right?” She asked her voice soft and sympathetic. I took a deep breath, trying to make sure my voice came out normally.

“I know.” I said back. When I said nothing else she continued.

“If you need to talk-”

“I just want to be alone right now.” I cut her off. I wasn't trying to be rude, honestly, but I needed this. After a few moments of more silence I thought she wasn't going to leave but when I heard her footsteps begin and then grow fainter I sighed.

That's when I was pulled back to my own thoughts.

Walking deeper into the bathroom I leaned against the sink and stared into the mirror. I can't let him be the reason why I fall apart. Not again.

As I looked at my reflection I noticed that my face was paler than usual and my eyes were pink and puffy. I pulled my hair behind my ears and continued to stare.

What the hell do I do now?

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Hours later I found my self laying on top of my bed looking up at the ceiling. The boys would be performing tonight at 8. Sighing I placed an arm over my eyes. Should I even go? Wesley would want me there and I want to be there too....but I don't know if it's safe. Not only for me but for everyone else.

I wanted to let out a groan but Tori's voice stopped me and caused me to uncover my eyes and sit up.

“Hey Kim. It's 6. I plan to leave at 7ish.” She hesitated. “Are you still up for tonight?”