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My beautiful girl, always. I love you.
I stare at the bracelet, slowly running my thumb back and forth over the engraved message. It's a beautiful silver bracelet from Cartier. It's simple with diamonds and aside from the engraving, it was quite expensive. I've never bought jewellery for a woman before so I was at a loss, and had to have help from my sister. I've also never been good at gift giving and had no idea as to what I should get Elowyn, but I knew I wanted it to be sentimental.
As I place the bracelet back into it's box, I wrap it up and try not to think about the fact that she'll probably never wear it. I mean, how could she? She'd have to explain to Orlando where she got it from and why it's engraved with a message as such. She'll probably leave it here and only wear it when she's at my place. My apartment has become home for a lot of her things. Her toothbrush, razor shampoo and body wash, a hairbrush and her makeup. Her clothes are neatly folded or hanging in my wardrobe, she mainly wears a pair of my boxers and a button up when she's here though. It's one of my favourite things about her, the fact that despite how many clothes she has here, she prefers to wear mine.
I kneel down and place the bracelet box in front of the tree along with the other presents. Most of them are from Elowyn, she brings over a new one every time we see each other.. I've got her the engraved bracelet, her favourite perfume, a few lingerie sets and a pair of heels that she saw one time and pointed out to me. I tried to buy them when we saw them but she was having none of it. I also bought her a journal with her name stamped on the front.
I always get a strange feeling when I look at these presents. It's a sort of warm feeling, the idea that she saw something and thought of me. It makes me feel special.
I wonder what Orlando's bought for her. I was in their apartment the other day. We fucked in their bed, on the couch, against the wall and then on the couch before I had her once again in the shower. Their tree is a lot bigger than mine and there's stacks of presents beneath it addressed to both Orlando and Elowyn.
It's the twenty-second and it's quite late in the afternoon as I sit at my desk, trying to write. It's quite hard to focus when I'm too happy and excited about seeing my girl tomorrow. Orlando has taken the day off to spend time with her before he leaves tomorrow. She told me he was taking her to lunch, shopping and then they were going to see one of the shows on Broadway.
The thought of her with anyone other than me sends a chill down my spine. I'd rather be dead than her be in the arms of another man. I know nothing will change until she leaves him, but is she even going to? What would happen if she did leave? Would I marry her? Give her the children she wants? That isn't something I've ever seen happening in my life, me having kids, but id do it for her. At this stage of my life, I'd settle down with Elowyn. She's the only woman apart from Elene that I've ever wanted to do that with. If only she'd leave. We could be married and we could walk freely. She'd be Mrs. Styles, we'd have children together, she'd move into my penthouse, or we'd move to England, or wherever she wanted.
How am I here again? I've gone from being a man who was happy with spending the rest of his life alone, to a man that's yearning for a woman that he can't have.
