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░17░ DIX-SEPT【All-In-A-Day's-Worth】

✅ Correlates to episode — Truth.

♩LUKA♩

ꕤ Wednesday ꕤ

𝓘'𝓜 back at the ship playing with my guitar outside. Lately, things seem to have been quite sympathetic. The world that emptied it's color after my heart shattered seemed to be filling up again. Slow, but steadily the lyrics swindling in my head begin to make sense once more. That is to say that I'm not completely okay. But, at least taking time away from Marinette has made me realize a few things about myself. Actually, thanks to my Akumatization, I've gotten to re-connect with someone in my life that I thought lost me forever.

Ever since the clues tied towards Jagged Stone, it's opened my eyes towards another sensation of finding my family. I've been very grateful to see him again, and even sitting down and talking to him has made me very pleased. However, my mother thinks it's not so great though, she still says, "He's nothing but a scumbag!" and you know she's probably right. But at least were making up for lost time, that is more than I can ever bargain for.

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After my un-expected photoshoot with Adrien yesterday, I couldn't help but wonder what he was going to say. So many things happened all at once—that even I was confused. First, I get a text message from Nino:

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NINO🎸

Tuesday 12:44 pm

NINO: hey dude long story short...
I need u to go to the park

NINO: someone from the band
wants to meet up with u

LUKA: ok, may I ask who's
meeting up with me?

NINO: sorry no can do,
it's a surprise!

LUKA: um ok, well can I
least know when
they want me there?

NINO: oh yeah! ofc!
meet them at the park at 4.

LUKA: sure...

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He wouldn't tell my who was going. It seemed kind of strange. I'm no expert but, he could just say who it is . . . so I though, it was someone that I have some distance towards. I wouldn't want to say it, but my prediction was to be Marinette. I'm not afraid of seeing her again, but I know my heart will cry a little.

But to my surprise, it was Adrien who appeared.  I started to re-connect the dots and figure that he doesn't have my number so maybe that's why Nino sent him instead?

But, strangely, I got pulled into a photo-shoot. The entire time, Adrien seemed fidgety like something was on his mind. I have to admit, running into Adrien rather than Marinette would seem better, if only he wasn't the one she was in love with.

It crushes me to know that Marinette probably broke up with me because of Adrien, of course I don't think I'll ever know based on my assumptions. I mean, no matter how many people I asked that day, they all would only say one thing: "She's in love with Adrien Agreste." But it's not like I already knew. I just wanted to see if I had a chance. But after I spent some time with Adrien, I felt kind of different about him yesterday, not like how I saw him at the band, but an actual connection to a possible friendship.

I'm glad I conceal my emotions so I can push away my envy, because I know that deep down, Adrien is just as broken, perhaps he still doesn't know of Marinette's feelings, but maybe I can still root for them. At the very least, when it all goes down, I want them to be happy, even if it sacrifices my own comfort.

Of course, everything went down the drain when Adrien tried to tell me something, there was a huge shift in the wind, and the trees seemed to scream that all along, Marinette was supposed to be here. I mean it would explain why he was so anxious. I just never thought Mr. Agreste out of all people would try to lie. But, I do applause him for trying to tell the truth after.

Still, it bothered me big time how he just ran off, it was very dangerous. But I'm glad he cares about his bodyguard so much. When he came back, I was so relieved. I wanted to continue what he was saying earlier . . . but he had to leave.

I get the impression his father's mad. I know this because when Marinette and I were dating, she'd occasionally talk about her worries with Adrien, she'd tell me that he struggles at home, that his mother was gone, and that he feels so alone; she would express her gratitude for Kagami for being with him at the time.

Even though I knew . . . she wished she could help him in some way, or possibly be the one to fill in his void. However, I'm always looking at body language whenever the band is together, sure Marinette would smile and cheer for me because I was her boyfriend, (if she showed up that day) but she always looked at Adrien so desperately, like a puppy craving for his attention, and he . . . doesn't have a clue in the world.

It gets hella annoying to know that even after our breakup, people are still trying to get them together even if that's what I hope. Because, I'm not oblivious believe or not, I have a sister who always tells me the details.

I like being caught up with everybody, but at the same time, I hate feeling so isolated. I went to school at one point: dropped out after getting held back, and then I'm getting homeschooled. It's nice being home taught rather than being stuck in a cramped classroom all day, but it's not nice to always have tunes for myself and no one to share with.

What about Jules? Well she's usually out with her friends, or she's with Rose and you know that's not what I mean, I mean I've wanted to care and love someone for a long time, and I thought . . . Marinette would be the one, but I can't chase after someone who doesn't love me back.

So I guess I have to be patient, hopefully I'll find the one to soothe my heartstrings.

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~Word Count: 1041 words~