Sweet Romantic (Loose Trilogy #2)

Chapter 29: Acceptance

"You passed Ateneo!"

I jumped in happiness, when Ate announced me that. After confrontation with her. Naging open na ako sa kaniya, ukol sa mga plano ko. But about Mama, I'm still scared to tell her about that.

"Legal Management, are you sure of this?" Tumango ako kay Ate.

Honestly, that's my first choice when I did took the Ascet. Nung una nagdadalawang isip, but like what I always saying... I am gifted with a voice, and I want to use it.

Ukol naman kay Mama, hindi ko pa siya nakakausap ukol dito. I don't know... maybe because I'm scared that she might get dissapointed since I didn't pursue her dream... to become a teacher.

Sa nagdaang araw... I realized, I should be happy on what path I'll be chasing. Because of the end the day, I can reasoned out that... I dreamed to be here.

During the weekends, Ate encourage me to tell this to Mama. After all, para sa akin din naman ito.

"Mama." I breathe out as I call her attention. It takes me a lot of courage... humarap siya sa akin. I can feel the tears encouraging me to cry.

I take a deep breath to calm myself down. A failure... that's what I want to be. Dahil sa pagiging achiever, nagkaroon ako ng kilanlan, dahil dito... nakita ako ni Mama. Above all, validation motivates me to strive more.

But day by day... it made me feel so drained.

My eyes widened when Mama came closer to me, and hugged me. Dinig ko ang paghikbi niya... "I'm sorry." Lumunok ako nang maramdaman ko ang pagbara ng lalamunan ko. "Pasensya ka na kung nakulong ka sa hangarin ko." Bumigat ang bawat paghinga ko.

"I'm sorry, Anak..."

This time, it urge me to cry on her shoulders. This warmth... I never felt this. Dahil kahit pinilit kong makilala sa awards and recognition... I never heard her calling me her daughter, I never heard that she's proud of me... she never showed me some affection.

Humiwalay si Mama mula sa yakap, pinatitigan naman niya ang mukha ko, at pinunasan ang aking pisngi na puno ng luha.

"Kung ano mang tatahakin mo... alam kong huli na, pero abutin mo iyon, Anak. Susuportahan ka ni Mama."

Loosen up... for you to be able to move forward--with peace and freedom.

Akala ko 'di maaayos, akala ko mawawala ko sila. Pero hindi... it really takes time to be fix, when the pride got loosen up.

"Nilabas na ang list of graduates, and Wynter won't graduate." Balitang bungad sa akin ni Isaiah. "There's an anonymous sender that revealed such evidences regarding about the controversial missing answer key."

Humalukipkip ako. Ilang linggo na lang, we're going to graduate from being Senior High.

"Hindi ba maganda iyon?" direktang tanong ko sa kaniya, na kinagulat naman niya.

"Is this your revenge?" Agad naman akong umiling.

"Can be... but it's greater when I called it "sweet revenge." My lips rose.

Makiayon sa plano ni Wynter. That's the original plan, for me to have my plan; a reverse plan, kumbaga. She deserves it. After all, she doesn't deserve to graduate while her friend is suffering.

"Aren't you feel guilty?" bakas ang poot sa tono ni Isaiah. Humupa ang ngiti sa mukha ko.

Guilty? There's a part of me that guilt is pleasurring me. Lalo na sa kalagayan ngayon ni Lissy.

"I'm always been... hangga't 'di pa siya maayos. I'll always been feel the guilt." And that's the truth.

Everyone of us became busier, to finish such task for us to be able to graduate. Though, nagsisimula na ang practice namin for graduation which I am excited about.