secrets i've kept hidden (a poetry story)

that hole in my chest

remember that hole in my chest?

it's cracking up again,
and i am bleeding a little

day
by
day

he wanted me to be closer,
but i couldn't

round
and
round

i went

my mind is damaged

i'm not really sure how i feel about it,

the tie between us cut,

i lost apart of me i can't get back,
and i can't explain it

but i will never be who i was

ever

again

i think she died
cause i can't bring her back

he carries apart of me with him,

and i carry all his secrets and pain

and it holds me down

please get off my chest,
i can't fucking breathe

i need this hole gone

both of us were broken,

but you were the only one that needed saving

i can't live without you

i hate you,
i love you

nothing ever changes

i want you to come back

i want you to stay

forever

i think the reason why i stay,
because

i need this hole gone

i feel empty
and
all my love drained out of me

i can't get her back

"why?" he said

"cause i think she's dead"