secrets i've kept hidden (a poetry story)

lust expires

seems like one thing is on your mind,

i can't relate

i guess we are just two different people

but there's times where i want you to hold me down

grab me,
aggressively

pull my face closer when you kiss me

i miss it sometimes,

but i remembered what happened between us

so i distance myself even more,

lust fulfills you,
but i promise,

it doesn't last forever

you're gonna regret pushing me away

i am full of love,
and i wanted to start over with you

i will never admit it though,
cause i have to pretend that i don't like you

when i wish i can see you all the time,
call you every night before i sleep

we can cuddle and play with my hair like you did before

lust expires,
and when it does

i don't know if i will be around anymore