secrets i've kept hidden (a poetry story)

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writing about this is something i wanted to get deep in,

i wrote about it before,
but i wanna make it more realistic

this boy,
i met on this "dating" app,
even tho it's not a dating app

i see it as a tinder 2.0

he wasn't that bad looking,
had a good job,
manners,
he SHOWED effort

he was actually very nice,
and maybe one of the best dates i've ever been on

he took me out for dinner,
i wore red
and black

a cute lazy fit with my hair straighten

he dressed comfortably,

on the way to dinner,
he was of course having a sexually charged conversation with me

like that with every boy i hang out with,
i'm kinda used to it

so i play along

at the end of the night,
it was getting late

he wanted to park somewhere and talk

so i didn't really know my way in gatineau,
so he brought me

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i remember this is where my cousins wemt to school,

and i thought it was a little strange

he wamted to make out,

and i was ok with it

i sit in his lap

and we start grinding on each other

i wasn't really into it,
cause i knew i was never going to see this man after that night

so i wanted to experiment,
to see what i liked

and i didn't see the problem with that

he wasn't terrible looking,
just not a man i wouldn't want to be with after what he said and what he did to me that night

nothing in this experience felt wrong
but i knew i liked freaky things after that night

no one was in the school parking lot,
but us

he pulls my shirt off and unhooks my bra

and looks at me and says

"you're so beautiful"

"you're body is beautiful too"

he continues to kiss me and touch me,

i didn't know how to feel,
but i didn't want him to stop

a car drove by,
so i laid on top of him

and he says,

"on the look out"
and he laughs cause he thinks it's cute

he starts kissing and licking my breasts

it actually felt really good,

i started moaning and for once,

i wasn't faking it

he smiles
and says

"i like the way you moan"

i giggle and i let him continue what he's doing

he then tells me to turn around,
so i did

i bent a little bit over and he started licking my back all the way down my love handles

i was moaning so loud,
he knew what he was doing

he took his pants off,
and i knew what he wanted

he sat back down and i touched him,
didn't take him long to cum all over my hand

he was moaning and i knew i was doing a good job

nothing is more hotter than hearing a man moan due to you pleasuring him

the night ended,
and he brought me home,

infront of my house,
and he kissed me

i wemt in,
and i never saw him

again

call me a player,
but i liked it,
just didn't like him as a person

he probably felt like shit after i dropped him,

and i would to if a man did that to me

i don't regret what i did,

but

i pleasured the wrong man?

yes

i was unadded in the morning,
and the story ends

so now,
everytime i drive by

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i will remember that this was one of the places i made a man's eyes roll back