It's A Fine Line

35: "And This Is Jungkook, My...Friend?"

Mark decided not to start attending his new school at the end of the school year. He realised how awkward and disruptive it might be to him so he messaged me that he'd start attending next year and would just power through at his current school.

Things were still awkward with my parents. But that was alright. Rome wasn't built in a day. Neither did a bone heal within a moment.
Every bit of development mattered even if it was small.

They knew more about all my friends, since I spoke in great detail about all of them.

I even told my mom about my crush on Jungkook. (Telling my dad would've been too awkward).
I obviously didn't tell her about any...affectionate gestures. I thought it was best to keep that to myself.

She said I was being stupid for not sharing my feelings with him.

So I mocked her by repeating her words while doing a bad vocal impression of her. Well in my head. I didn't have a death wish.

But seriously she made it sound so easy when it really wasn't. It wasn't just because I valued our friendship and didn't want to lose it because of my emotions.

I also didn't want to complicate things for him. He needed me as a friend and I didn't want him to feel like he has to appease me to keep my friendship.

Sure he kissed me, but he probably regrets it already since we haven't spoken about it.

To be fair, I didn't want to speak about it.

Things are just better the way they are. I didn't need to complicate matters with words and...feelings.

Also now wouldn't even be a good time to tell him anything, because it's the last day of school and I was going on vacation with my parents to Japan to visit my sister.

The trip was planned even before I reconciled with my parents weeks ago. It's just that now, I'm happy to leave with them.

My only regret...or disappointed rather was that I wouldn't see Jungkook until next year when school starts again.

I was going to miss him. A lot.
But atleast we could still message each other.

"Why don't you come with me?" I asked him when the final bell for the rang and we were leaving Math class.

"And how do you suppose I do that?" Jungkook smiles.

"I'll hide you in my suitcase? Do you think you can squeeze in? "

He gives me a long serious look before breaking into a laugh. "No. I don't think so. But even if I could, where are you going to put your clothes?"

"In my dad's suitcase. I'd put it in my mom's but she packs 3 outfits per day so there won't be any space," I shrugged.

Jungkook chuckles at that.

"Or you could just pitch up coincidentally and then we figure it out from there. You just have to say you're hungry once in front of my mom and she'll cook up a storm inviting you to stay over. "

"As tempting as that is, I'm not going to intrude on your family time, Sen. Especially not when you've finally reached this healing point after bearing a lot of heart ache," he said thoughtfully.

"Okay," I agreed.

After a few moments of comfortable I asked, " Are you sure you're not upset that I'm leaving and only coming back when school starts? Because I can stay. I'll figure something out."

"I'll be fine. I'll miss you. But I'll be fine. I'm going to be at Hyung's house anyway. So you don't have to worry about me. I promise. And we'll still be able to talk so really it's alright. Hmm?"