It's A Fine Line

31: Sunflowers

"Okay, you can stop laughing at me now," I huffed. But Jungkook's laughter continued.

Generally hearing his laugh would make me happy but in context of the current situation I just felt insulted.

I crossed my arms. "I'm starting to get really offended now. My feelings are deeply hurt. "

Jungkook looks away and tries to reign in his laugh but the moment be looks at me again, it sets off another fit of laughter.

"Jeon Jungkook, if you don't stop laughing at me right this moment I swear to you, I will start crying within the next 5 seconds. Do you really want me to cry?" I pout tears form in my eyes from embarrassment.
For someone that strongly proclaims she doesn't cry easily, I certainly did cry rather very easily.

Jungkook notices my lower lip quiver and sees the expression on my face. And as much as he still finds what I said hilarious he does manage to stop laughing.

"Okay okay. I'm sorry. Don't cry," he says wrapping his arms around me comfortingly. "See, I stopped laughing. Don't cry. I'm sorry."

"You really aren't, are you?" You sniffle.

"I'm really not. " A laugh is about to bubble out from him but he holds it in and clears his throat. "But I don't want you to be sad so I won't laugh. To be fair though, it's the first time I ever heard someone saying they're afraid of sunflowers. "

I make myself stiff in his arms but he presses his cheek against my head and holds me slightly tighter. For a moment I forget that he was just laughing at me. In fact, I even forget what we were talking about. But only for a moment.

"Yeah well we don't get to choose our fears, do we Junglebook. I know it's an irrational fear. And I've tried getting over it. But I've had it since childhood and it's never going away." I relax against him.

"That makes sense...mostly. What about sunflowers scare you?"

"The middle part. I can't look at it for too long. When I was younger I used to think it would swallow me. Now it just creeps me out in general."

"...Swallow you..."

"Don't you dare laugh," I gazed up at him and glared. "And no judging me either."

"I would never dare do that," he says with a smile. "Honestly though...thank you for telling me. It wouldn't have been easy telling me something like that knowing that my  immediate reaction would be disbelief. I appreciate you telling me. "

"Yeah yeah. Thank me all you want. You still laughed." I huffed indignantly. "Just wait and watch. The next time you experience something embarrassing. I'll be there, filming it. And on every special occasion I'll play it on a big screen. I'll have merch made about it. I'll get the picture placed on the exterior of a bus. When we die I'll tell everyone in heaven, hell and purgatory about it. I'll never let you forget it just like I'll never forget this. RIP actually stands for Revenge is permanent. "

If someone told me I had an evil glint in my eyes at this exact moment, I would believe them. I wouldn't even think to question them.

To be fair, I much prefer that look masking what I was really feeling on the inside.

I have no doubt there'd be hearts in my eyes just from the way Jungkook was holding me. The warmth that he was exuding that my heart just wanted to absorb. My feelings were getting stronger by the day. But Jungkook didn't need another girl to be fawning over him. He needed a friend he could count on. And I would continue to be that. I'd just have to ignore my feelings and hope my heart would get the message.

"Wow. For someone so small in size you hold a lot of rage inside. I mean I could toss you onto the moon if I wanted," he says lifting me slightly in the hug, " and then you can zoom in with your phone all you want you wouldn't be able to film anything. Even if I called Mr Wang dad accidentally. "