it will rain • Chaelisa

• Faculty

Point of view Lalisa Manoban

— So you insisted that Rosé not go after denouncing the nurse? — I nodded, looking at the therapist in front of me. — And do you regret it?

— No, I beat him a lot, and if he went to jail he wouldn't even stay a full day, if I could prove what he did.

—But you know he committed a crime, don't you?

— And I didn't do it either? — I replied, laughing without humor. — This story doesn't bother me anymore, I'm happy to have overcome it.

— Are you sure you got over it?

— You don't think so?

- I'm asking you. — I stopped to think of a convincing answer, but even I wasn't sure of my words.

- I don't know. — I crossed one of my legs, placing my hand on it. — I don't think about it anymore, there's a lot going on lately.

—What things are happening?

— There's this new job, which I'm loving doing, my fighting classes and therapy, I think the only bad thing that happened in the last few days was my meeting with Rosé's parents. — I said, lowering my gaze.

- Do you want to talk about it?. — I took a deep breath again.

— Her father can't stand me, her mother is more understandable, but I know she also has feelings for me.

— And does that bother you?

— Of course, it's her parents, you know, I spent our entire relationship trying to please them, to be a better person, but I couldn't.

—But didn't you say you're doing well now?

— Now, but I've known Rosé since I was 15, today I'm 25.

— Is their approval very important to you?

— Yes, as much as they don't like me, they gave me their house many times to stay, and I know it was all for Rosé of course, but I'm still very grateful to them.

— Don't you think it's time to focus on you? Because whether they like you or not, whether they believe in your change or not, you continue to evolve, is it really that important?

— I don't know, I just wanted our relationship to be good everywhere, in our coexistence, in our work, in her family, I think we deserve that.

— Have you ever stopped to think that sometimes things don't work out the way we want?

- Yes, unfortunately.

— So don't you think it would be better to eliminate that issue for now, and continue focusing on your improvement?, and certainly the rest of things, like living with Rose's parents, went much better after that?

— Yes, maybe it's the right thing to do, Rose doesn't seem to care much, you know, she doesn't care about their opinion, she never did, even when we were 16 and I was a completely troubled and lost girl, I think deep down I I just want everything to be perfect for her, I'm still very afraid of losing her.

— Do you think this fear is irrational?

— No, because I'm still unstable, and it could happen.

— You are both people, you can both make mistakes with each other.

— But the probability of me making mistakes with her is much greater, and I don't know, our relationship is very good, but it seems like I'm always looking to improve even more, and I should just enjoy the moments with her and follow our path. life. — I looked at the therapist who smiled when she heard me speak.