Loverboy || Malum

Chapter Twenty Nine

the next morning

M I C H A E L ' S  P O V 

The lack of movement began to ache my body, but I stayed quiet for Calum's sake. We were back to cuddling, his back once more against my chest. I held one of his hands, interlocking our fingers while my other hand was carding through his hair. We stayed in the same position for a little longer until I couldn't bare it anymore. My legs felt dead, my back was sore. It felt like the Earth's gravitational pull was just about as much as it would be on Jupiter.  

"Calum," I whispered as softly as I could. He turned around so he could face me and looked me in the eye. His eyes no longer the light shade of brown that I grew to love but a shade of dark brown filled with sadness and tiredness. "I think we should go tell your family.  They're probably worried about you." 

For a good minute, I got nothing from him. He didn't move, didn't speak. I would have doubted he was even breathing had his chest not slowly rose and fallen. He just looked at me with his tired eyes, mine were probably pleading. I was starting to doubt I would even get an answer before I heard a rough 'okay'. A smile made its way onto my face, I was proud of him. The fact that this was one of the hardest times for him but he still managed to want to go see the rest of his family.

"We're going to need to take a bath first, is that okay with you?" I asked him. I didn't want to push him into doing something he didn't want to do. I didn't want him to think he had to do anything for me, I wanted him to be comfortable with his own skin, comfortable with the environment he's in. 

"Stay with me." He whispered. Everything he was saying was rough, but he this was the most he had spoken in an entire day or two. 

"Okay," I replied. I pushed the duvet off of me and slid out of the bed. My entire body ached more than it did when I was laying down. I stretched myself, allowing my bones to crack so the pain isn't as bad as it was. I watched as Calum slowly got off of the bed as well, but rather than stretching, he just stood there.     

I took his hand and interlocked it with mine, leading him to the washroom. I let go of his hand, and walked towards the tub, turing the hot water on to let it flow. I twisted the handle for the cold water so it was on what I think was a 10 degree angle to the water wasn't so cold. The both of us were already in our boxers, so the undressing bit wasn't going to be hard, it was the fact I've never actually seen Calum naked before. I was always hoping the first time would be more.. special.  

I walked back up towards him and bit my lower lip. To say I was terrified was an understatement. "C-can I?" I stuttered out. I tried to sound confident but failed. His bit his lower lip as well and nodded. Him biting his lips made me go crazy and he knew that.  

I placed my hands on his hips, the tip of my fingers just touching the waistband of his boxers. By now, my hands are shaking. I tooked up at Calum, his lips still inbetween his teeth. He looked so innocent, just looking at me. He gave me a weak smile, and placed his hands on mine. He - me - we, slowly pushing down his boxers. When we got it down to about half way through, I gulped. I bent down a bit, finished sliding it down his legs and then did the same for myself. And that's when it hit me once more that this was the first time we have ever seen each other naked.

I didn't want this moment to be awkward at all. I grabbed his hands once again and led him towards the tub. I put on leg in, then the other, and he did the same. I sat down at the end that was further away from the tap, Calum sits on my lap. He just positioned himself so one arm was around my neck while the other laying on my chest. His face burried in my neck, but our legs intertwined near the other end of the tub.   

He opened his mouth then closed it right away. I took the hand that was laying on my chest and intertwined his fingers with mine. I kissed the top of his forehead and smiled. The fact that his bare skin was against mine would have usually made me feel uncomfortable, but he was sad, he was slowly slipping away, and it was killing me.  

"I'll help you get through this, no matter what," I said softly. He was the most important person in my life, always. Even when he drove me crazy or made me mad. Even when he didn't speak to me for ages and asked some girl out. 

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We stayed in the tub for over an hour, maybe two. It felt a little nice, a little more reveling. I wanted so hard to try to do something, just to keep Calum happy. I knew he was feeling a lot of pain, the type of pain I have never gone though. Stories of people going cold turkey were terrifying, many led to death because no matter how hard they tried to stay away from the drugs, they turned back. It was the moment they turn back that kills them instantly. It terrified me to think Calum would turn back because in a short period of time, he tried many different drugs that gave him such different highs, and in an even shorter period of time, he got off of the drugs.

I can see the pain in his eyes, the pain I've made him go through for the past couple of days. If I hadn't pressured him so much to stop, he wouldn't have had to deal with this pain.

"M-michael?" A soft voice spoke up.

"Yeah, babe?" I replied instantly.

"I don't want to talk to them, yet," he said. I nodded, respecting his decision. He would talk to them when he was comfortable, and that was the important part. Forcing him into telling his parents would be no help to anyone. They would question him a lot, and who knows what kind of pressures it would put on Calum.

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If you know someone who is doing drugs, or any type of illegal substance, do not yell at them, do not unfriend them, do not hurt them in any way possible. Be there for them, care for them, and let them know that you are there for them. If they do not want to go to rehab, please understand, but that does not mean you should not try to help them. A person going through cold turkey is about 20x worse than what I am currently writing it to be. They need as much support and love as they can get. 

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I'm Neam, I'm nearly 17 and my mum used to take her dad's cars and drive them around behind his back in eighth grade. I'm going in 12's grade and have never driven a car.