How I met your mother - Stellaride AU story

The night we met (3)

1 month later

Kelly's pov

1 month has passed since my whole life changed forever, 1 month with Ezra and 1 month without Stella, it has been the hardest blessing, the days are long and the nights even longer, but I seem to be getting into a routine and as Stella would say I'm kicking arse at this dad malarkey.

It was a little over a week since we buried Stella and Ezras facial features had started to show a lot more, looking more like Stella everyday.

He certainly had her her eyes although his left one had a hint of blue making his eyes super unique as they both appeared to be different colours, his smile also reminded me of Stella, which reminds me he smiled his first proper smile yesterday when I held him in my arms as I danced around the living room to settle him and his mom's funeral song played through the living room speaker.

I don't remember adding it to queue but at a time I was missing her most, with the anniversary of first meeting her being today actually, it was the most perfect sign that she was still with us somehow in the form of that song. Which also happened to be called "the night we met".

I had stopped dancing and instead started singing to him as he looked up at me through out the whole duration of the song and smiled.

Today I was going to visit Stella's grave, I visit almost every other day to tell her stories about Ezra, there not exciting it's normally things like he urinated on me again, how many diapers he goes through, and how many bottles he's now taking, it's not what I'd usually talk about but it's things we probably would have took for granted if she was here.

I got Ezra dressed and place him in his car seat he's a lot more chunky than when he was first placed in the car seat he fills it out a little more and I have had to extend the straps a little.

I carry him out the apartment as I head down to the car "ready to visit mommy, handsome boy" I say lifting his seat up to me as I lean in and kiss his forehead, he opens one eye slightly as he does a half grin.

I take him to the car and buckle his seat in before I go to the front and climb into my seat.

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A short journey later I arrive at the cemetery parking lot and I take Ezra's car seat out of the car turning him towards where we are going as I lock the car and head through the gates.

I walk towards the bottom where Stella's grave is, situated right underneath a blossom tree that constantly leave a blanket of pink blossoms scattered around her grave. A spot she definitely would have loved and chosen herself if she was given the option.

As I walk closer to her grave I spot a little robin bird sat on top of her headstone looking around, as I come to a stop in front of the headstone the robin looks at me then flies down onto Ezra's car seat handle, I place his seat down gently in front of the headstone as I sit back and quietly take my phone out to take a photo, capturing the robin still on top of his car seat.

The robin soon flies away up into the tree as I watch it fly off, I move over to Ezra taking him out of his seat as I sit him on my lap "we're back mommy" I say looking at the picture of Stella on the headstone.

"We have a whole one month old now honey, he is looking more like you everyday, the first thing I hear whenever we meet someone who knew you is how he is your double, great for him as he's going to be one handsome little fella, but boy is it hard for me as all I see is your face and it makes me miss you more every time I look at him" I say looking back down at him as his eyes wonder around following the shadows that were casting from the tree branches.