Eternal Love

Chapter 15

Hope's POV:

They didn't come back. I don't know what's gonna happen now. I've barely got them and now they want nothing to do with me.

It's been at least a day and a half since that night and my chest has been killing me. The only thing that I find out helps is drowning it out by drinking and numbing myself.

   "Mija?" My dull eyes connect with worried gold eyes. Carmen the woman who's been so worried for me hasn't left me alone since that night.

  In fact none of the others have either. I hum as I take a swig out of the bourbon bottle in my hands. "It's time to eat," she slowly informs me and I nod slightly.

  "I'm not hungry," I respond in a dismissive tone and take another long drink as a sharp pain contracts in my chest again.

   Carmen tsk and kneels down in front of me then cups my face. "Please, mija. Eat something for me? You need something other than alcohol in your system," she pleads with me and my eyebrows furrow in concern.

   I don't like that she's kneeling for me. I'm not royalty. "Okay," I whisper and help her up so she's not kneeling anymore.

  Why would I want anyone to kneel at my feet? That's just wrong. A happy smile takes over her features and I can't help but give a small smile in return.

   "I've made your favorite, Mija. I've even made extra meatballs," Carmen says wrapping an arm around my shoulders.

   I nod slightly and let her guide me downstairs towards the dining room. The others are setting up the table and looked up when we stepped in.

  They give me a smile but past that I can see they're worried. "Ah my sister from another mister is here," Kate jokes getting a small chuckle from me.

I walk over and sat down next to her then set the bottle of bourbon on the table. "Is this your first bottle?" Kate stage whispers and gestures with her head to the glass bottle.

   I nod with a hum. It's almost empty. I have at least three sips left of it then I'll go for my second bottle tonight.

She frowns slightly and set her hand on my back then gently rubbed it. "Here, hun," Irina set a plate of food in front of me with a smile that I returned.

"Thank you," I respond quietly then scoot my chair in more and stare down at the food. My appetite hasn't been the best as of late. But I have to try for tomorrow. It's the day Sara and I go to the doctor's for the pregnancy test.

I reach forward and picked up my fork then slowly swirled some noodles on it before putting it into my mouth.

From the corner of my eye I see the others staring at me as I do. I look at them as I chew and instantly they all look away as they began digging into their food.

I know they're just worried for me and I appreciate that. "You uh didn't miss anything from our classes today," Kate gently spoke up and my gaze turns to her.

   I nod slightly and swallow my food. "That's good," I quietly say before taking another bite of my food. I barely get halfway chewing before I feel sick.

   My eyes widen slightly and I drop my fork then sped towards my bathroom. I throw up whatever I just ate into my toilet.

   A soft cold hand on my back let me know that I'm not alone. "Shh, let it all out, mija. You're okay," Carmen quietly coos in my ear along with sweet nothings.

   I gag and nothing comes out. Groaning in discomfort I lean against her hand and flush the toilet.

"Look at me, mija," Carmen softly says and I turn my head towards her. She has a hand rag and moves forward to wipe my mouth and chin.