self harm
definition: deliberate injury to oneself, it is an act of inflicting pain and damage to ones own body
you don't really understand completely unless you have dealt with it yourself
people wonder why i do it
and ill tell you why
it's like a drug
once you do it, you feel an emotional release, and suddenly you can't stop
because its better than dealing with it on the inside
so you transfer it onto the outside
i always thought
you were born to love yourself
to take care of yourself
not to hurt yourself
but then you start falling into this deep hole,
one that wasn't your goal
there's no light
so you give up the fight
when you wake up
and see you're still in the dark
you keep hurting yourself
sometimes its because you're numb
sometimes its because you want to die
sometimes its because it is a bad habit
sometimes its because you're mad
there are endless reasons why people self harm
but then you realize
that it is not helping you
and that you need to get better
so you put in the work to do so
you learn that the urges will never go away
and there will be times you end up relapsing
it takes lots of time and effort
but in the end
it is worth it
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the reality of mental health
Poetry"you're a complicated person to love, and care for" "i know" i say "i deal with it every day" TW: sh, si, & mental illness. feel free to skip if you get triggered by these things #2 in poem collection (2.27.24) #1 in poem collection (4.12.24)
