"this will be a one time thing"
i told myself
but i didn't know what i was getting into
i got consumed
in the way it made me feel
the way i saw the world
i couldn't stop
no matter how hard i tried
i always went back to it
when i was sober during this time
(which was rarely)
i was extremely depressed
i was always anxious
i was always paranoid
i was isolating
i was getting in a lot of trouble
i knew i needed to stop
but i couldn't
until i realized how much it was affecting myself and others around me
so i stopped
it was one of the hardest things i have done in my life
but the best decision i made for me
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the reality of mental health
Poetry"you're a complicated person to love, and care for" "i know" i say "i deal with it every day" TW: sh, si, & mental illness. feel free to skip if you get triggered by these things #2 in poem collection (2.27.24) #1 in poem collection (4.12.24)
