Behind The Mask II Harry Styles #Wattys2015

Chapter 50

Harry's P.O.V.

Dear Diary,

I saw the devil today and he looked a lot like me. It keeps getting harder and harder to control it every day. I just wish he would go away. He is trapped in my head. He is the keys to my house, to my basement. If I get too far inside, I only see his reflection. Anywhere I go, he will be there. It's always better when the light is off. But wherever I turn, he is there, open up my skull, and he is there climbing up the walls. We're friends until we die. I'm afraid that I am going to do something bad. I'm afraid that I will hurt her. He keeps tempting me with his sweet, sick words. It's been so long and I just want to feel that feeling again. I told Louis about it. He is the only person I can trust. He was the only person who was there for me through it. He says that I will never change, but what the fuck does he know? I feel like running away from everything. Sometimes I think things would be easier if I just ended it, but I think that's just him tempting me again. The voice inside my head keeps getting louder. It started out as just a whisper but now it is a scream. I feel like I could kill. I feel that I might like it. I know this should scare me, but it excites me. I had a dream last night. It was odd. In my dream, the world had suffered a terrible disaster. A black haze shut out the sun and the darkness was alive with the moans and screams of wounded people. Suddenly, a small light grew. A candle flickered into life, a symbol of hope for millions....a single tiny candle shining in the dark....I laughed, and blew it out. I don't know what this dream means but it should scare me. It doesn't. I love Alyssa and I don't want to hurt her...yet.... -H.

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