Behind The Mask II Harry Styles #Wattys2015

Chapter 23

Alyssa's P.O.V.

I was woken up by the sun shining brightly on my face. I groaned and rolled over. I didn't want to wake up yet. I looked at my alarm and it was 6:00. I knew I had to wake up in 15 minutes but every second of sleep counted. As tired as I was, I didn't manage to fall back asleep. Maybe it was because I was thinking about the dream I had about Harry.

It was strange that I was dreaming about him in the first place, let alone him being my boyfriend. I had a boyfriend already. I felt bad because I felt like I was just leading Nate on. I'm not sure if I really like him like how he wants me to. I love him as a friend. We've known each other for years but I just don't know if I feel the same about him. I just don't want to hurt him.

I never get the butterflies like they get in the movies. I just was so confused and didn't know what to do. I felt sad and guilty like I was being dishonest. I sighed when I remembered the fight that I had gotten in with Nate. Maybe I should apologize. I got my phone out and texted him. I'm sorry about last night. =( I sent the text and rolled out of bed. I went to my bathroom and started getting ready. When I was all ready I checked my phone and I didn't have a reply.

I hope he still isn't mad at me. I shook my head and ate breakfast quickly before putting my coat on and heading out the door. As each day passed, it kept getting colder and colder. I couldn't wait until winter time. I loved just cuddling up with a good book by the fire. It would be even better if I had someone to cuddle. I have never had anyone to cuddle. Nate is my only boyfriend I've ever had and it didn't even feel like we were in a relationship.

I hope he replies soon. I walked down the tree lined street. The colorful autumn leaves painted in hues of reds and yellows fell down gently to the ground. The breeze blew flew my hair and a shiver went through my body. The leaves rustled on the ground and the sound was relaxing to me. I cleared my mind and walked to work.

~After Work~

It was a long day at work and I wasn't happy about it. It wasn't worth it to work so hard when you barely got payed anything. I needed to start packing up so I can move out because I had to be out tomorrow. I put in for the day off tomorrow but they probably won't even accept it. I don't care if they do or not because I refuse to go.

I'm being kicked out of my apartment and I'd rather be fired than being kicked out by the police. It's a tough life to grow up in an orphanage and to move out at such a young age with nothing. I just took it one day at a time and hoped for the best. I stopped by the moving vans rental office to buy some boxes. They were so expensive for a stupid piece of cardboard but I had to have them. I spent the last of my paycheck just buying boxes.

It has not been a good day and I just wanted to curl up and cry myself to sleep but I had to pack. While I was walking home, I felt my phone vibrate. I looked at my screen to see Nate had texted me back. It's nice to get a reply 12 hours later. I rolled my eyes and read the text. Whatever. Can I come over? It read. Wow. Polite.

I guess. I texted back. I was gonna show the same amount of enthusiasm he showed me. I was still mad at him but it was pointless ignoring him. I had to be the more mature one in this situation. I got to my apartment and went inside. I went to my kitchen to find a snack. I had a long week ahead of me. It was only Monday and I had to move out of my apartment by tomorrow and go to work for all the days.