Behind The Mask II Harry Styles #Wattys2015

Chapter 53

Alyssa's P.O.V.

I woke up tangled in someone else's body. I opened my eyes to see Harry cuddled up to me. I slowly scooted away. I was still wary of last night and I was worried. I must have stirred too much because he woke up. His eyes met mine and he smiled. It was a relief to see him smiling but all I could think of was last night. Why was he suddenly happy?

"Good morning." Harry said cheerfully. Something was definitely wrong with him. 

"Morning?" I said as more of a question.

"What's wrong with you?" He asked. Did he even remember what had happened last night.

"Oh...nothing." I said, trying my best to fake a smile. Maybe he legitimately didn't remember?

"Want some breakfast?" He asked. I just slowly nodded. He got out of bed and started walking downstairs. I followed behind him and when he walked into the kitchen he stopped. The broken glass was still scattered across the floor and he looked confused. Was he drunk last night?

"What happened in here???" Harry asked, his eyebrows squinted together. He looked so confused and sad and it pained me.

"Well..." I didn't know how to explain it to him.

"Well...what?" He asked.

"I came home and you were breaking things and I came in and found you huddled up on the floor crying and I tried to talk to you and you just said you were sorry..." I said. He looked at me like a lost puppy and then a new emotion flashed on his face.

"Shit." He mumbled.

"What?" He came over and pulled me into a tight hug. I didn't move.

"What's wrong? Did I-"

"Did you what?"

"H-Hurt you?" He said, sadness and pain prevalent in his voice.

"No...but you raised your hand like you were gonna hit me." I said in a small voice.

"Oh my God, Alyssa. I am so sorry. I-I need to tell you something." He said.

"What?" I asked.

"Come here." He led me to the living room and we sat on the couch.

"Baby, I would never ever hurt you. I don't know what was wrong with me yesterday. You have to believe me. I love you so much and I just could never do anything bad to you. Please believe me." He said.

"But what about yesterday?" I asked, a frown on my face.

"Sometimes I just kind of black out and I do things that I shouldn't. I don't even know that I'm doing it and I can't remember. I have no memories of last night. It's all just a giant black blur. I can't control it....it just sort of happens." He said. I nodded, taking in what he just told me.

"I'm so sorry, baby. I really am. I would never mean to hurt you. You mean so much to me. You're the only thing I'm living for. I've been through a lot of shit and my life was a living hell until you came around. You're the light in my dark life. I can understand if you don't trust me anymore but let me make that up to you. Please?" I was still trying to process everything.

"You'll never understand baby....I need you so much." He said, leaning in so his lips were mere centimeters from mine. I wanted him to kiss me everywhere. I still trusted him completely even after what he had done. He had something wrong with him and nothing could change that. I would still love him no matter what. I leaned in and pressed my lips to his. He smiled big.

"I'm still the same Harry. Listen, I try to control my attacks but sometimes I can't. So if I ever am acting funny, I want you to hide from me. I don't mean to scare you or anything but I can't control it sometimes. I don't want to hurt you so you have to do whatever it takes to keep you away from me at those times. I just need you to be safe." He said, kissing my lips again.

"Do you understand?" I nodded, smiling.

"That's my beautiful girl." He said, holding my face in his hand. We both got up and went to breakfast together. We came back and I helped Harry clean up the mess he had made. He sung along and was being a goof, showing me that he really hasn't changed.

"Do you want to come to the store with me?" He asked.

"Of course!" I smiled and got up from my place on the couch. We went to the store and picked out some new dishes. We came home and I helped Harry put them away. He kept peppering my with kisses and I didn't mind at all. He was being extra affectionate and I loved it. I loved this side of Harry.

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Harry is still a good guy. Don't think any differently of him now that more of his secrets are being uncovered. He still loves Alyssa. It will all make sense soon. ;) Thanks so much for reading! Love ya'll! <333