Mine

Chapter 3

                                Cameron**

The whole time in class I just couldn't wait for Emily and I to hang out. Jason wanted to hang out with his girlfriend and me but I told him I had plans. I didn't tell him anything about Emily and I hanging out. I didn't know what it was about her that made me want to get to know her. Emily really seemed like a nice girl. During practice, I could see her watching me. I was trying my best to impress her. I could see her smiling and enjoying herself. We had a little bit of a break time. I ran over to her and asked her how she was liking the practice so far. "It's really interesting but I'd like to see the actual game," she told me and I told her I could make it happen.
After practice, Emily and I went and got some ice cream. I liked getting to know her and I even told her for the next game I could get her in for free if she really wanted to watch. After ice cream, we walked around the park. It was really nice to actually be out without my team. As we were hanging out at the park I saw Jason and his girlfriend Madison. "I thought you were busy," Jason said when he walked up to us. I didn't tell Jason I was getting to know Emily or hanging out with her. "I decided to hang out with the new girl" Emily got mad as I called her the new girl. After Jason walked away Emily gave me a mean look "So I'm just the new girl to you. I thought we were friends" she said to me. I felt really bad for calling her that. "We are friends, " I told her trying to stop her from leaving.
Nothing I said to Emily made her not leave. I felt so bad. The next day I was hoping to catch her before class but she wasn't at her locker when I got there. Instead of going to practice, I stood by Emily's locker waiting for her. "What do you want Cameron" she said as she walked up to me. "Can we please just talk?" I asked her hoping she would talk to me. I knew Emily didn't want to talk. "I don't want to talk to you," she said very madly. I couldn't help what happened next. I pushed her up against the locker and kissed her. I didn't know what came over me but I really just wanted to kiss her. After kissing her I got very scared and just walked away without saying anything to her. I didn't know I had feelings for her until I kissed her and felt sparks. I knew something was drawing me to her but I didn't think it was feeling. I haven't been in a relationship with anyone since my ex-girlfriend broke my heart. I have been with girls but never dated them.
Jason called me a few times on my way home but I didn't answer him. I didn't even answer my mother when she called me. I was sitting at the park by the lake just trying to think for a bit. I didn't want to go home because I knew my mom would want to know what was going on. I felt like my heart was breaking over a girl I barely even knew. Jason texted me a few times after practice was over and I never replied to him or my mother. Emily texted me a few times wanting to talk but I didn't even answer her either. I didn't know what to say. I was in my head and just worried about the feelings and thoughts I was having over her. I know from the conversations Emily and I have had is that she always dated bad guys.
I went straight home and up to my room without saying a word to my mom when she asked why I wasn't at practice. I just wanted to be alone. I sat in my room all night not knowing what to say or do when I saw Emily. I had class with her tomorrow and I didn't know how to come about seeing her. The next day I didn't go to school. I told my mother I was feeling sick. My mother never questioned when I said I felt sick or needed a day off from school. I could tell my mom knew something was off about me because I stayed in my room and didn't want to come out at all. My mother did ask me if was I okay and I lied and told her I was fine. I didn't want to talk to anyone about how I was feeling.
I shut my phone off after my mother left for work. I didn't want to talk to anyone and I knew if my mother needed me or to check on me she would call the house phone if she couldn't get ahold of me through my phone. Sitting at my desk thinking made me bring out the box of papers I had under my bed. I had a box that had some pictures and letters from my ex-girlfriend, Ava had given me a long time ago. I always kept them just in case she ever wanted to get back together. My feelings for Emily are way more than I ever had feelings for Ava. I never wanted someone so badly until Emily came. I want what my parent has but with Emily. I know I messed up big time and I don't know how to fix it.