Felicity from a young age has grown up with her sister, as she grew older her sister was there less and less so she became a ruthless teenager driven under no rules, parties , drugs , alcohol. She goes to pick up weed of Fezco and Ashtray, the more...
fuck my head was spinning. i felt bad for my mom, what i had said anyways but the more i left myself contaminated for the rest of the world then the worse i would get. i wanted to go to jules, well i know she will be dissapointed in me. i have been telling everyone im sober. only fezco knows im not. i continiously let myself down and sometimes, i dont even it for myself. i do it for the people around me. and thats another reason why this world is completely fucked up, people never do it for themselves.
the air was cold and fresh. each breath was a gift, ever since my over dose everything i did i quizzed myself. i guess this was just a period of reflection. restraining myself to stay away from any sort of drug tonight is what i lusted for but it was near enough impossible. and as soon as you let youtself down you feel yourself crumbled, sink into guilt. and constantly ask yourself, was it really worth it?
"ash im so tired" fee whined rolling over to her side
"go to bed then" ash said fixated on her every move
fee stood up about to walk through the door.
"where are you going? ash stood up after her
"to salias room to sleep? you can stay in here"
"no its okay, stay in here. ill stay with you until you fall asleep."
to that, felicity grabbed a tablet out of her draw and swallowed it before getting into bed.
"what was that?" ash spat
"helps me sleep, goodnight" fee whispered turning the light of and rolling towards ashtray.
ASH POV
her scent was heavenly, her body was compressed up against mine not purposely, she was asleep. i didnt want to wake her up by moving so i kept her next to me. a thought i kept to myself was 'looking after her incase of her sister and fee arguing' was a pathetic exscuse of a lie. if i really disliked her, or had no interest i would never of came. i couldnt get distracted and i definatly didnt want to let felicity down but i quite frankly could not stop myself.
my phone screen lit up
FEZ
-bro you need to come home
-why whats going on?
-fez is outside looking about, just incase something happens. ion wanna risk it like last time
-omw
ill be so for real, i did not want to leave her here. not only because i felt bad but i wanted to stay. fez was right, we cant risk loosing anymore money then we already have. i escaped her arms, she didnt even know she was gripped onto me but i am not planning on telling her either. dont wanna embarrass her.
i could still smell her aura on me, fuck this was not good. she had me wrapped around her finger. i me- fuck is that rue?
"yo, yo rue?" i shouted.
she turned around, squinting. she was a fucking distraught mess. always around me and fez. chasing after drugs, she had a story though. i couldnt blame her. i know she lets fez down a lot, they have a sister and brother bond.
"ashhh, what are you doing out so late?"
"going home" ash muttered
"oh shit for real, you got i dont know anything on you. fez said hed spot me"
"fez dont spot no one" i rolled my eyes before pulling a small bag of ket out my pocket. "all i got, and all your gettin rue"
fuck, its like 1PM. i wonder where ash is, my eyes are still heavy and tired. 7 texts and 4 missed calls.
salia- dont get yourself pregnant, and i do not appreciate the way you spoke to me or mike yesterday, when i am home we will a conversation. also i am planning to be moving in with mike when i am back from our trip to new york. when i see you we will discuss this further.
maddy- bitch what the fuck happened?
- wake the fuck up
- im coming over at 2
ash- i had to go, there was stuff going, just had to sort some stuff out. i will see you today
- come store when u can
jason- long time no speak fee, how are you doing? im moving back into town, we should so hang out. these passed 2 and a half years ive been gone has been crazy. ill give you a call later on.
maddy- 2 missed calls
ash- 1 missed call
jason- 1 missed call
jason? he is some fucking cunt. he was my ex boyfriend who one day randomly decided to live with his grandparents down in chicago and never return, he treated me like shit to, overly self obsessed, i could not be bothered with him at the moment. and maddy is supposedly coming round in a hour.
- hey, yeah sure come for 2 just woke up
this was very not ash, he seems to care. care what im doing, care that he left me and care enough for me to come and see him later which i definitely will.
- sure, i just woke up and dont worry its ok. see you then
"so nothing even happened" maddy spoke with a boring tone. "aburrido" she muttered under her breath.
"no, nothing happened, y no soy aburrido, simplemente no pasa nada entre nosotros en este momento."
fee's mum was also spanish aswell as maddy's so occasionally they will both argue with each over in éspanol.
"estas segura de eso" maddie touched up fees hair in the mirror. "see all straightened, i told you not to get so agitated over your hair all the time you know i will always do it for you"
"thankyouuu" fee stood up kissing her cheek whilst smiling at herself in the mirror.
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felicity loved her hair, sometimes the curls would ever so slightly piss her of. but the majority of the time it was her favourite thing.
ash- will you hurry up its 3 and im bored
fee- yes wait
"who you texting" maddy peered at her phone
"ash, he wants us to go round to the store"
"lets go, i guarantee you he will think you look good.
