LUCYS COUSIN - a julien baker fanfic

chapter twenty seven - ERs

(Juliens POV)

her eyes rolled back and then closed. she had passed out. i went into panic mode, putting my car in drive and flooring it to the nearest ER.

my vision was a little blurry from tears welling up in my eyes, threatening to spill. i dialed lucy's number quickly, praying she wasn't asleep.

"hello?" she answered.

"im on my way to the emergency room" i said,
"what?" lucy asked in a very concerned tone.

"ivy just- started like- like having a panic attack or something and then" i stopped, reminding myself to breathe, or i would send MYself into a spiral. "she passed out" i said.

"im on my way, be careful driving j, be safe." she said, "i know-" i look in my review mirror, a cop is close behind me with his lights on, "fuck." i say.

"what?" lucy says on the other line, "a cop is trying to pull me over, i- lucy i can't stop i need to get her to the hospital" i say anxiously, being able to see the hospital only a few seconds away.

"just- just pull in the ER and he'll understand" she said, so i did. the cop turned his lights off and just kept going.

"okay, we're here, i'll see you soon, love you" i said, hanging up.

i scooped ivy's limp, unconscious, discolored body in my arms while running in the ER. i don't remember if i asked for help or not, i just remember staff bringing out a stretcher to put ivy on. when i tried to follow them but they pushed me back, not allowing me to come along.

i felt tears well up in my eyes again, trying so hard not to let them fall.

i saw lucy walk in and i stood up quickly, walking towards her. "woah, are you okay?" she asked, putting a hand on my shoulder. i opened my mouth, but nothing came out. she had her hand on my lower back, leading me towards one of the secluded waiting room cubicles.

i sat down with her, and turned to her. i think i was in shock. "lucy-" i said, and then the tears started falling. she looked sympathetic and pulled me closer to her, "come here, it's okay" she said quietly. "it was so bad- her eyes rolled in the back of her head and then- she was just- laying there unconscious" i said, pain evident in my voice.

"shh, it's okay, they're gonna take care of her" she said, pushing my hair out of my face. "she was so limp, she was blue lucy- they wouldn't let me back there" i said, trying to swallow any sobs that felt like they were forcing their way through.

"it's gonna be okay, breathe julien" she looked at me, now i knew how it felt when i told ivy that. it felt damn near impossible. except i could do it, was she able to breathe, was she breathing now? i tried to slow my breathing to the best of my ability to prevent myself from hyperventilating. it actually worked, with the help of lucy, teaching me some breathing exercise.

"there, that's better, yeah?" she said, pulling my hair back for me. i nodded. "she's gonna be okay" lucy said, my hair was now in a low, messy, bun.

now i was tired. exhausted even. i leaned my head on lucy's shoulder, i wanted to know if ivy was okay. if she was awake. if shes awake she's gonna be so confused, so — scared.

i don't know if i dozed off or if i just blacked out, but all i remember is getting up to walk to ivy's room.

she was asleep, but i was relieved to see that she was okay. she had passed out from lack of oxygen because she was hyperventilating so much she wasn't getting enough oxygen in.

her heart rate was slower, i was just glad she was alright, and her color was back to normal.

i walked over to her, placing a kiss on her forehead.

a/n: these guys never catch a break! sorry if this has a bunch of typos or something because i was literally falling asleep while writing it. this chapter is shorter because i wanted to write juliens point of view of what happened, hope you guys still enjoyed it! <3
(this was written three months ago it's currently may of 2024, sooooo sorry that i haven't been updating)
-em

(733 words)