do i start with the sad bit? nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I TALKED TO ELI TODAY ^^ i really like xem, they are very cool ^^
i also talked to mj and sage later on which was many funs :3
today was many funs, many many many funs
okay now sad time
I don't know if I'm going to make it to 18. Now I don't mean that in a depressing way, there's an explanation to this. As of right now i wont be able to get any sort of gender affirming care whatsoever until i turn 18, some people might think that's an amazing thing right? at least for me that's not right, my mental health has been steadily getting worse over the past couple years (4-5) I'm scared that if I cant find something I'll just become another statistic. I know that writing this wont change anything but i just need to get what I'm feeling out into the world. I'm scared of being a statistic y'know? I want to be one of the trans teens that make it past 18 but I doubt that'll happen if I cant get any sort of care. I'm really fucking scared...
night nightyyyy
