Puff Pass Love| Lip Gallagher x Reader (SHAMELESS)

Building Trust

I blushed keeping my eyes on his "You're so different than the others" I told him his face warmed "What do you want to do the rest of the day?" he asked in a deep sexy voice "Smoke, play the games with you, I don't know what else to be honest" he smirked at me "You wanna spend time with me still?" "Yeah of course" I squeezed him "After what I told you?"  I nodded glancing at him "I feel like you've changed or at least you want to, I also want to get to know you remember" He licked his lips arm still around me "Makes sense" "How was college before you left?" "I- um... I enjoyed it to an extent, had a lot of problems with finances and family really, I was top of my class in high school my GPA was 4.0 and everything, they say I have a lot of potential in my future" I smiled reaching for his hand "I can see that, I was gonna go to college but everything got overwhelming I couldn't handle the way my dad treated me and all my exes... it was frustrating I'm happier here now" I confessed.

Lip looked at me with understanding as I spoke "Do you think you want to go at some point?" I thought about it for a second "Maybe" he nodded kissing my forehead "I want you to have a good life" he told me "It's gotten better than it was" I said with a chuckle "I wish it was like that for me" he said shyly "Me too" I squeezed his leg he looked at me with passion and leaned in for a kiss, I went in feeling our lips collide my body felt warm my eyes shut and I wrapped my arms around his neck his hands grasped my waist as I felt throbbing between my legs he swiped his tongue against both of my lips asking for access I opened trying not to hurt my jaw, our tongues swirled as I felt the sensation turn to wetness as he started to grab my ass I moaned into his mouth as my hands went across his body trying to feel every inch, his tongue inside my mouth licking what he could before I pulled away for air "Oh my..." I said looking at him with lust.

Lip smirked looking away without a doubt he was hard, I blushed "How about that bong?" He said with a chuckle. Licking my lips I reached for it "If you say so" I grabbed the lighter hitting it hard a spike hit my lungs and I coughed at least that's what it felt like. I kept my eye on him glancing at his dick as I let out all the weed in my system "Do you think we're moving too fast?" he looked at me after he said that "I um... I don't know really" I fidgeted around anxiously "Is this fine for you? The whole making out thing...?" "Yeah it's not like you have any STD's... I should've asked you that before hand" I said the last part in realization and shame "No no it's ok I don't" he told me grabbing my hand I nodded "You promise?" "Yeah?" "Did you get tested?" "Yeah a while ago" "You wouldn't lie to me... right?" "No not about this I promise" he kept eye contact with me. I smiled at him "I don't either" I told him as we held each other.

Since the situation took a different turn the mood was gone but it still felt comfortable to have him around I picked up my controller turning on the console feeling his eyes on my body, he grabbed the bong taking a nice long hit and coughing after a few seconds "I don't think I'm gonna get used to this" he said in between coughs. I giggled "Yeah going from drinking to smoking-" "I mean being with you. I've never done this before, it's only been a day and we've done so much together... I've never been the kind of guy who stumbles upon someone as perfect as well....you" I turned to him in shock hearing his emotions about me pour out "I-I'm way less than perfect Lip, you haven't gotten to know the real me yet... I want this to work with you I'm just not who I seem" "What do you mean? I know I want you" he seemed adamant about it, I blushed turning away "Why do you think I got into those situations?" "I'm sure you didn't mean to" "True... but I'm a bad person, if I'm not the problem I drive people away" Lip grabbed me by the face making sure I look into his eyes "You can't drive me away Y/N, if you tell me what you mean then I can deal with it" I sighed "I can't stop feeling guilty, about everything that went on in my past, I hate myself for it, and I always try to tell the truth but I end up leaving some parts out, or I'm easily manipulated by people around me... everything should've been better now but I still wake up everyday wanting to... um" he let go of me taking in my words "It will get better, how long have you been out here?" He asked pulling me in for a hug "A week" "See if you have me by your side you'll be just fine, give it a few months maybe less but you'll talk to me though right?" I was quiet for a few moments.

Communication is key, for so many years I went through relationships without even knowing how I felt or being able to talk but this seemed so real. I kept in my emotions "Yeah" he smiled at me "I think this can really work, better than anything we dealt with before" he rubbed my knee gently "Me too" my heart was racing so we're my thoughts, I grabbed the bong again hitting it and I shakily set it down breathing out the smoke my hands were trembling. Lip didn't notice which was surprising but I started to get an anxiety attack, my heart had dropped I started to sweat and had trouble breathing since hiding my panic was something I had been doing for years I was able to accomplish the same thing but these symptoms started to last longer than usual I started to feel nauseous and dizzy, he sat next to me looking around the room some more "Hey uh is it ok if I go get a cigarette outside? I won't steal your lighter" he suddenly asked. I looked at him "Oh uh yeah you better bring it back though" he chuckled standing up "I will" and with that he pulled up his pants opened the door then closed it behind him as I sat on the couch with nothing but my thoughts.