Puff Pass Love| Lip Gallagher x Reader (SHAMELESS)

Break

The silence in the room was intense, Fiona looked even more pissed off "I'm not dragging anyone down with me, I'm just trying to focus on myself-..." Lip rolled his eyes before glancing at me "No you just want to put all your stress on my girlfriend who already has to live with herself" I gasped wondering what he meant by that "Come on Lip don't talk to her like that-..." "No Fiona I'm done listening to you! I can talk to Y/N however I want, if she's making the stupidest decision she's made not including the ones before, then I'll say something and this is me... saying shit!" he shrugged after he spoke. I felt tears gathering in my eyes "I-I just wanted to help" was all I could say. Folding my arms he sighed "Just go Y/N" his eyes focused on Fiona "I don't want-..." "Just shut up and go!" he yelled causing me to flinch now. I wanted to walk across the room and slap him, Fiona had a lot going on including impending debt while Lip was more worried about our relationship.

Granted I was overthinking everything he was saying "Stop telling me to shut up! I wanted to help out because I know you can't!" his shoulders slumped as his glare was now on me "The fuck do you mean by that?! You couldn't even keep an eye on Xan" Fiona chimed in now "That's not even her fault!" Lip growled glancing at her again "I'm not gonna sit here and have you both gang up on me! Y/N you already have enough to deal with just go home" my eyes shook as tears started to gather again, my limbs shaking as I looked at him with regret. All the flashbacks of our relationship going through my head "Then don't come see me" was all I could say before I stormed out the door "Y/N wait!" they both called after me as the salt ran down my face. I stomped down the steps gripping my back reaching for my vape "Y/N" Lip was right behind me "Leave me the fuck alone!" I turned around inhaling the flavor then blowing it into his face, he coughed raising an eyebrow at me "I'm fucking leaving, I don't need your bullshit either since I have so much to deal with!" I turned around on my heel until he grabbed my wrist harshly.

My eyes burned as I looked at him, no feelings left "I didn't mean to leave forever" his voice full of worry. I scoffed folding my arms after shoving the nicotine in my bag "Look, you don't get to treat me that way. I don't need to keep having flashbacks, I see this was a waste of time so I'll just go" I tried to leave again "Wa-Waste of time?" he didn't take me seriously as he asked the question "I should've just ignored you and Frank, I'm done" I shrugged finally escaping. Making my way to The Alibi Kev looked at me with worry, my eyes were red, I was sweating and I looked distraught "Y/N are you okay?" I shrugged sitting in my spot "Your uh usual?" I nodded not saying a word. My phone buzzed as a text came up.

Fiona- Look I know Lip was being an asshole but you don't need to break up with him, he didn't even continue arguing with me honestly he just left.

My heart dropped knowing she heard what I said, or at least he told her. I pushed my phone away as Kev passed me my drinks "Are you alright Y/N? Be honest." he pressured knowing by how I looked. Tears ran down my cheeks as I tried to respond "I think I just broke up with Lip" Kev stopped any movement as if he froze looking at me in shock "But- But you love him though" I nodded with a sob as I took a shot. The bar was mostly empty for the moment except for Kermit and Tommy who also froze giving me the side eye waiting for me to continue, I sighed explaining what happened "It's just after he said all that... he really did remind me of my ex, telling me to shut up telling me to leave but begging me to stay with him... I don't know how to feel about him right now, it's like I lost feelings for him" they shook their heads hearing me out.

Kev sighed passing me an extra shot "Yeah he shouldn't be telling Fiona stuff like that after you told him in confidence" "See, I'm glad you guys agree" "If he's remind you of your ex then maybe you should say something" Kermit spoke up "I... don't think I can see him right now... he knows I regret being with him" "Do you?" Tommy asked instigating "I don't know... I don't want to be in another toxic relationship. I kinda swore off guys when I was in New York so, I was hoping to find a girlfriend for the longest but that obviously hasn't worked out" they all raised their eyebrows "Wait... your bi?" Kev asked as if I was an alien "Yeah... Lip knows but he doesn't know I was gonna be full on gay..." "You said Fiona told you he left right after?" I nodded humming a response "Mhm" "What if he's coming here? Or to your place?" I thought about it for a moment before shrugging it away "I don't really care anymore , I just need some space I haven't seen him in days until well an hour ago... I wanna get drunk and stumble home then cry myself into a pile of weed, I don't wanna be here anymore honestly"  they looked at each other "I can take you home Y/N, when your done" Kermit said, he seemed genuine and concerned "I'll be fine, maybe Lip will stalk me or some shit maybe even that crazy homeless guy" "The one under the L?" I laughed "Yeah Lip wants to kill him" we all laughed at this point.