Music in My Hart: Huskerdust Children FanFic

Chapter 25: Auditions

Well, today was the moment of truth and for the first time in years, I actually was nervous about performing on stage. I think the feeling is mostly attributed to the fact that I was performing in front of my Dad for the first time and I really wanted him to be proud of Jessie and I. We both put in a lot of hard work and commitment into our rehearsals so I knew everything would be just fine in the end. I was also very persistent on performing this song in general and Jessie was pretty much open to performing anything and never really questioned my song choice.  It was evident however that she had a lot of things on her plate at the moment so I suppose choosing a song was not at the top of her list of priorities, which of course was understandable and fine by me.

We walked up to the ballroom entrance and stood there for a brief moment. I looked at her and saw that she was tugging at and combing through her hair nervously. I took her hand in mine, "hey, are you alright?" She nods her head and blushes slightly which made her look absolutely adorable. "I'm okay, I guess I'm just nervous is all.

It's been a while since I've performed on stage so... yeah I guess that's why I'm so nervous." I smile at her and kissed the back of her hand which makes her blush again, "you're going to do just fine just like we practiced. And also think of it this way, you won't be up there alone. I'll be right there beside you and singing with you the entire time. This seems to put her mind at ease a bit and she takes a long deep breath and smiles, "thanks, D."

I smiled at her weakly, "that's what friends are for." She smiled and walked ahead of me. When she wasn't looking my smile faded because I wanted to be more to her than just a friend. Although we initially agreed that she'd do it as long as I wasn't dedicating the song to her or trying to use it as an opportunity to serenade her, I just couldn't hold it inside anymore and she has been avoiding me and when she wasn't she kept blocking me off from talking about it so what alternative did I have? If she would talk to me and hear me out we could have avoided this but I didn't want to live out the rest of my afterlife never telling the only person I ever loved how I felt about her.

I mean, at one point, yes I thought what Cherri and I had was love but since meeting Jessie and getting to know her, I knew that what I felt with her is completely different from how strongly I feel for Jessie. So this was my moment. It was now or never and even if she hated me for backing out on the agreement to not use this to serenade her, at least I can finally rest peacefully knowing that I was honest with her about how I felt. I take a deep breath in and then release the exhale before walking in behind her. My band was testing out the equipment and making sure our instruments were in the proper tune so I decide to rush on stage and pitch in.

I went over onto the stage and checked to make sure that the amplifiers were plugged in all the way and working before then stepping behind each microphone and conducting a sound check on each one. I get over to Jessie's microphone and test it however when the sound check was done, I noticed that she was back at fiddling with her hair again. I place a hand on her shoulder and smile and this seems to help her relax again as she smiles back at me. I decided to move my stool and microphone over to be closer to her. I thought that by doing this she might be a bit more at ease during the performance.

With all the instruments and sound equipment all in order, I lean over to adjust the height of the microphone and clear my throat and speak into the microphone in front of me whilst cradling my acoustic guitar in my arms,
"Hey guys, I just want to start by thanking you guys for the opportunity to be up here and auditioning for you today." 'Here it goes, the moment of truth. Let's so make the most of it.'
I look over at Jessie and smile while still talking into the microphone, "I first chose this song because when I saw the title it reminded me of someone that I am madly, truly and deeply in love with. With  every beat of my heart, these lyrics truly communicate my feelings for her perfectly.