p.sunghoon → f.y.b.f.

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"I can't take Lea to the Enhypen fanmeet because my stupid boss just asked if I could cover one of my colleague's shifts." Eunbyeol cursed continually under her breath, and then she suddenly gave a hopeful look at me.

I knew what that read, I knew exactly what she was hinting at with those large, round puppy eyes and how she was trying to hide her smile by pressing her lips together.

"Nari.. pleeaasee, can you take Lea to the fanmeet. It's only for a few hours, it's tomorrow. You aren't busy tomorrow." She gave me them eyes again, obviously, I couldn't resist.

As much as I wanted to, but I was also curious. Would Sunghoon seriously not recall my name at all?

"You must be joking." I told her straight up, she approached me and gave me a hug.

"Pleaasee, pretty please. I'll owe you big time, come on, it's not like Sunghoon will even remember your face. Pleasee, Nari, please." She pleaded with no shame at all, I'm sure she would've stooped to her knees in a second.

I looked at Lea, enjoying the song by Enhypen playing from the tv, she was sort of singing along, but her Korean was a little messy and babyish. I gave a large sigh, looked back at Eunbyeol.

"When and where." I groaned, giving her an unamused face, she grinned, jumping around in circles with Lea.

She gave me all the information I needed, my tickets and all of that nonsense. Eunbyeol persisted with thanking me, she was acting extremely nice after I agreed.

How could I deny a small child seeing her role models. As long as her bias wasn't Sunghoon, it'd be okay.

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Throughout the remainder of the day, I babysat Lea, she was real cute, and to be honest - gave me insane baby fever.

I did want a child, so bad, after seeing how Lea was. But considering how insufferable my current boyfriend of three years was being, I don't think I'd see the day that I actually hold a child of my own.

The issue was never this bad, sure, Jungwoo was always a pretty timid, awkward guy, but within this year especially - he's just been so annoying.

He's not touchy, and he's flustered over the smallest things. It feels like we aren't even in a relationship anymore, he finds it too embarrassing to hug me, let alone even kiss me.

What's a relationship without intimacy? Seriously? It's a taboo topic, but there's no foundation of a relationship when physical contact doesn't exist.

My life has been boring to say the least. It used to be exciting, moreover when I was still friends with Sunghoon. There was always something going on with him, something we were always doing.

But now?

I'm going to work, and then from work, home; home to my fucking boyfriend who's asleep by 8pm.

It did frustrate me, and no matter how many times I tried to talk to him about it, it'd result in either a small argument, or he'd just say I was being dramatic and so on.

I began having my doubts about this relationship, and whether it could continue flourishing if he was being like this, but despite that, I never thought more upon it. It'd suck to break off a three year relationship over barely any physical contact.

I wondered if there was anything in my life that could spark it back up into excitement again, like the times I had with Sunghoon.

Maybe one day Jungwoo will see how annoying he's being, and how much it's making me dislike this relationship - maybe in my dreams though.

I looked at the time on my phone.

11:23pm.

Damn, and I have to wake up before 10 so I can go with Lea to this stupid fanmeet of some band with a guy I despise the most.

But, at the same time, it made me feel a little nervous. It'd be awkward, right?

With a sigh, I made my way back home, as per usual, lights were all off, the place was silent, and Jungwoo was asleep.

I peered my head in the door, and yep, he was just fully asleep. He didn't work a hard job, he worked in an office, so it's not like had something to be insanely tired about. He was just lazy.

He didn't want to try, and probably thought that just because it's been so long, that I won't leave him.

But recently, even cheating looks enticing, and I fear that I may start to understand the principle of cheating, something I preached as unforgivable my whole life.

Hey, sometimes you need to break your own rules for happiness, right?