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~Tired~

"Kalani? Are you asleep?" I didn't answer him.

I was afraid too. He wanted to have sex, he'd been asking for days now. And last night, he said we were GOING to do it.

It didn't matter what happened. Didn't matter if I wanted it or not. He'd make me do whatever he wanted.

I knew if he came onto me, I'd let him do as he pleased. I was broken. I didn't fight back anymore.

If he asked for it, I did it.

He stopped hitting me. He was still rough, and aggressive sometimes but he didn't hit me. Not like he used too.

I think it's been a month since he kidnapped me. If it hasn't it will be very soon.

I haven't been out in days. Not since the incident. He wouldn't let me go outside. Not at all.

"Honey, wake up!" Suddenly I felt his lips on my neck. It made my skin crawl.

Tears streamed down my face as he slid his hand between my legs.

I opened my eyes and looked up at him.

"Hi honey," He said smiling. He pulled his hand away and kissed my cheek.

"H-Hi," I whispered. He frowned and brought his hand up to my cheek.

On instinct I flinched, he titled his head before he smiled.

"Why are you crying sweetie? Does something hurt?" He asked as he gently wiped my tears.

You would've thought it was endearing. But it was everything but that. He was taunting me.
He knew why I was crying.

He knew he was winning.

"I'm just sad we won't be alone much longer. I didn't get to be with you alone. Now we have to bring a child in the world, I just wish we could've had more time" please work.

Please!

"Aw! Sweetie we'll have 9 months before the baby gets here! We have all the time in the world to be with each other!" He said excitedly.

No.

This can't happen to me.

"Please. I just- I want too be with YOU for awhile. Then we can have as many kids as you want!" I said grabbing his hands.

He tilted his head before he chuckled.

"You're stalling," No.

"Wha-"

"What is it Kalani? Someone coming to save you or something? No. You think I'm stupid? Hm? Is that it?" He asked as he roughly gripped my chin.

"N-No! I just-"

"Don't fucking lie to me Kalani. I try so hard to be nice, and then you go and ruin it. You're gonna have my baby Kalani. Me and you are gonna be together! And I'm fucking you, TONIGHT!"

Please. There has to be someone out there! I need someone to get me out of here! I can't live my life like this! Scared of him, scared of what's gonna happen to me if I don't listen.

I'm so tired.

So so tried.

I can't hold on much longer. I tried. I really did. But things aren't working how I need them too. He isn't falling for my tricks anymore, and soon he'll just start taking what he wants.

"Please. Tony don't do this! I won't say anything! I promise! Just let me go, please!" I cried out.

He glared at me before he threw me back on the bed. He stood up and paced around the room.

"I can't fucking believe you! I GIVE YOU EVERYTHING! And you still want to leave me? No no no no! The ONLY way you leave me, is death. Do you fucking hear me?!? YOU WANNA LEAVE, THATS HOW YOU DO IT!" That doesn't even sound bad anymore.

Death has to be more peaceful then this. It has to be! At least I won't suffer anymore. Not like I have been.

I'll be a peace. I know it's selfish to leave all my friends and family behind.

But I've fought so HARD for them.

And nothing has changed. I'm still here. They have no idea where I am. They have nothing.

And I doubt they'll find me. I've lost hope. I've lost everything.

My mind, my sanity, my life.

I don't know how I'm still standing. But I know I won't be for long. Not if he succeeds in what he wants.

"So what it's gonna be Kalani? You wanna leave me? Huh? You wanna fucking leave me?" He asked as he stomped over to me.

He grabbed me and pulled me off the bed. I cried out as he slammed me up against the wall.

"PLEASE!" I cried out as he wrapped his hand around my neck.

"YOU WANNA LEAVE ME!" I cried and begged him to let me go.

But he wouldn't. He wouldn't let me go!

My head felt light. I couldn't breathe. I felt my body going numb.

Was this it? Was I gonna die today?

Is this my way out? Is this how I find peace?

"ANSWER ME KALANI!" I didn't.

I wouldn't. He'd have to kill me. He wouldn't have a choice. It was either kill me, or keep me around knowing I'd never love him.

He lost either way. He wouldn't get what he wanted. But I would.

I'd get away from him. I'd get my peace.

The only thing I'd lose was my chance. My chance to see my family and friends again.

See my grandma, see Austin, Taylor, all of them.

I'd never see them again. I'd never talk to them again. And I'd never get to tell them I loved them.

I didn't want to give up. I didn't want him to win. I was strong, I should've been able to handle this.

But I can't. Not anymore. I was done. I was fighting a pointless battle. I lost the minute I started obeying him.

But I wouldn't allow it to go on anymore. If death was the only way I was gonna escape, then so be it.

"I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU KALANI! ANSWER ME! ANSWER ME! ANSWER ME!" He screamed as he repeatedly slammed my head into the wall.

Everything around me was fading out. My ears were ringing, I couldn't feel my body anymore.

This is it.

This is how my story ends.

All I can say is,

I tried.

GASP!

That's actually insane that someone would leave that type of cliffhanger😔

Y'all think she going to the upper room?

Don't hate me for this, LOVE YOU~ Ava Wilson😁