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~Misery~

Austin's POV:

It's been two days since I've seen Kali. I honestly didn't want to see her. Not because I was upset or anything, but because I couldn't guarantee seeing her wouldn't break my heart all over again.

Not dealing with my feelings is becoming a new normal for me. And this is something I definitely don't want to deal with.

If I could go back, I would have done it different. I know she loves me, but she doesn't love me the way I love her.

And I can't deal with that.

The guys are all pissed at me too. Nick has tried to kill me four times now. Tristian won't talk to me. And Brandon, he just glares at me from afar.

I know I fucked up. But I couldn't help it. I needed to tell her how I really felt.

What was I supposed to do?

Wait around forever and HOPE she suddenly realized how we felt about her? Fuck no.

She didn't even know I liked her. I don't know how. I make it so obvious. We all do.

But she's always so wrapped up in her own little world she doesn't notice. Part of me thinks she knew. But she didn't want to admit it to herself.

"We're going to my parents for awhile. We'll be back later." I looked up hearing Brandon.

He's the only one who'll talk to me. He's still mad, but he'll talk.

I hummed and looked out my window.

If only.

I heard the door slam downstairs and I sighed.

Fuck.

This is my fault. They think she's mad and doesn't want us around anymore.

But Taylor said she wasn't mad when Tristian called her earlier. She said she wasn't even bothered by it.

Then again, she's lied about her feelings before.

She probably doesn't wanna see me anyway. I wouldn't either. Not after that mess.

If I'm being honest, I've been watching her and Tony these past two days.

I just don't feel right about him. There's something going on. I don't know if I'm making it up to make myself feel better, or if it's really there.

I'd ask the guys but I value my life. A little bit anyway.

And since everyone is so mad at me. I've been playing Sherlock Holmes alone.

Like today. I know Tony is scheduled to see his therapist Mrs Yonni. Why does he have a therapist? Because he's crazy.

So am I.

But I know I'm crazy. And I don't deny it.

He on the other hand likes to play make believe. That yellow tape in his file has been haunting me for days.

I need to know what it is. Because I'll be damned if he hurts my Kali. It could be something insane like he's tied into the mafia or something.

Whatever it is I'm gonna find out. Even if I have to do it on my own.

That's fine with me. Wouldn't be the first time. And I doubt it will be the last.

I sat up and grabbed my laptop. I'm not as good as Brandon when it comes to hacking into things, but I'm better than Nick.

So I can't be too bad.

I had his file saved into a private file of mine. Of ours actually. We all had one.