Web Of Lies

11

Jimins pov

I was in the dance studio perfecting my dance for the concert, not because I'm afraid of getting hit but because i hate imperfections. I don't want my dance to have a single flaw to it.

I have been here for more than three hours practising again and again, I smiled when the music ended, proud of my work,  I should be rounding it up, I was gathering my stuff when the door opened and in came Jungkook.

I could feel my heart in my throat for what's to come. Good things never last for me, I have a shitty luck, I hope he's not mad.

I quickly gathered my things and tried ignoring him in hopes that he's just here to practise, trying my best not to twist on my ankle and fall when passing by him.

"Wait," he says and I felt a tear fall from my eyes, 'shit' I quickly wiped it and turned around, if there's one thing I learned from there continuous assault is that they hate it when I cry, so I'm not making things worse for me.

I turned around to look at him, but he seemed nervous, I was confused, but I tried not to show it, "y...yes," I stuttered out, cursing myself.

"Hyung... can we talk," He says, his voice low. I thought I  heard wrong. 'Hyung' he called me hyung, I can not even remember that last time I heard that from him. They only used vulgar words or just Jimin.

"S... sure," still unsure of what's gonna happen next, I timidly answered. He exhaled a breath that he seemed to be holding, maybe afraid I wouldn't wanna talk. Even if I don't wanna, I wouldn't say it to there faces, its not like i have a choice. If I can just get away with talking, then I won't mind doing it forever.

"I don't know how to say it, or if I even deserve to say it, but hyung c..can you please fo...forgive m...me, I'm..I'm s..sorry for all I did, I know it must be hard for you to even be in thesame space as me, but I just want you to know that I'm sorry, and I promise you I wouldn't do it again."

I was surprised, because an apology was the least I'd have expected, I mean he and his boyfriend roughed me up badly just a few weeks ago, so I cannot help but be a little bit skeptical about it.

He looks at me while fidgeting with his fingers, he was nervous, it reminds of our debut when he was so nervous to even look at any of us in the, being the maknea and not having anyone to relate to, Tae and I are the closest he has as his confidante.

Remembering all that made me smile a bit, but knowing thar thesame person was the reason why I'm like this, I'm a bit skepticalon whetheri should trusthim or not, I don't want it to be a ploy were by I'm being played.

"I know It might seem suspicious and all that I'm saying this out of the blue, but I really am sorry for all that I have done to you, I swear it is not some kind of joke or anything, I really want you to forgive me hyung," He says.

I looked at him deep in the eyes in search of any sign of a red flag, only to find none. He seems to be sincere with his words. That was all I needed from them, for them to see me the way they used to, to treat me the same.

I smiled, I was so happy, "A...are you sure," I asked to confirm one last time, to have him nodding his head eagerly.

"I forgive you," I said, giving him a small smile. "Really, hyung, you're too nice," he says, trying to hug me, but I moved back out of reflex, bringing my hands to cover my face.

I looked up when I didn't feel any hit and looked at him, as realisation dawned to me, "I'm sorry," I blurted out, afraid he'll get mad.

"It's okay, I don't suppose you'll get used to the sudden change," he mutters with a small smile, but I know my action hurt him. I myself couldn't help it. It became part of me to always be on defense mode.

I smiled back the room becoming awkward, "I should get going, I need to take a shower," I said trying to break the awkward tension that was thick in the air, "Yeah I'll see you around then," he says waving.

I hummed waving back before I left the room.

Jungkook's pov

I sighed watching as Jimin hyung exited the room, I'm glad he forgave but still, it hurts when he backed away when i tried hugging him, it seems like it will take a lot of time before he gets used to us being nice to him.

I might sound selfish and all, but I wished everything would just go back to normal the moment I apologised, just like it happened with Yoongi hyung.

I'm jealous of Tae and Yoongi hyung. At least they get a clear pass the moment they'd apologise.

Tae was right, I'm still young, I really thought everything would go back to normal because I've realised my mistakes and am willing to apologise.

I sighed again, looking at the door where jimi hyung left some time ago, I just hope we can be friends again, I hope he will treat me the way he used to.

Thinking back makes me feel worse. Come to think of it, I was never a fan of making Jimin hyung angry because he seems scary.

During our debut, when he wanted to get closer to me because I always seemed lonely, I pushed him away. At first, it was subtle, but then I got annoyed and started making it obvious.

One day I snapped at him and told him to leave me alone, and go find someone else to entertain,  my words were harsh and I knew I went too far , but I couldn't help it I wasn't used to having people all over. I was young and immature. It was my teenage years, so I was very wild.

He did leave me alone, but I didn't like it one bit, I hated his cold shoulders more than anything, I hate it when he will ignore me anytime I approached him.

I wanted to so badly have his attention that I stuck around him 24/7, I tried everything possible to make him notice me again, and when it didn't work, I felt depressed over it.

Jin hyung was the one that told me that I needed to apologise and not follow him around, he told that I should call him back the way I chased him away, and that was what I did.

He was also the one that helped when I was confused about Tae and Hobi, he was the one that helped us through our relationship, without him I doubt I would've ever had the courage to tell my hyungs that I love them both.

I wonder why I ever did such things? What made me so angry that I had forgotten all he did to me? What was the reason why I had assaulted him so badly.

I sighed again for the nth time before switching on the music to dance my worry away.

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