Web Of Lies

25

Jungkook's pov

I'm stressed... so naturally, I went to the kitchen to find something to eat. I couldn't sleep at all. Tomorrow is the trail and its nerve-wracking, I wanted to sleep, but I've been slipping in and out of consciousness.

I went down to have some late night snacks to at least calm some of my nerves down.

When I entered the kitchen, I was so lost I'm my thoughts that I didn't notice I was not alone, I took some chips and banana milk and sat down on a stool when I heard his deep voice.

"Couldn't sleep..." he says. Oh, how much I miss the sound of his voice, I wanted to stay there and speak like we did in the past, but I still can't move past his betrayal.

I stood up, taking my chips and banana milk along with me when he spoke again, "Stay... please... just for tonight... let's be friends,"  he says, and I couldn't move past where I stood.

I wanted to ignore him and move to my room, but I would be lying to myself if I said I didn't want to say. I wanted to go, 'He doesn't deserve my pity,' i kept on reminding myself, but he was more important than my ego and so-called resolve, and so I sat back.

We didn't say anything, but the atmosphere was not awkward at all. I thought we would have an awkward silence surrounding us, but I guess I was wrong.

"I missed you... I missed us... I.." he started, but I cut him off. "Stop... stop, please... don't start, it took us time to start healing, don't ruin it please," the room became silent again.

"I really do... I just wanted you to know that whatever happened, I didn't mean for it to turn out this way, I've always wanted to give a formal apology but decided you needed time to come over everything, so I decided to wait till youre over it... till you're over me."

His voice broke at the last part as if he were unwilling to say it. I was silent for a moment before I spoke up, "Your apology is a bit too early Tae, we still need time, to be honest with you I don't want that day to ever come, I can't imagine a day when I'll wake up and feel normal without you in my life, I don't want that day to ever come."

He bit his lips and looked down, "I'm sorry," he mumbled, griping tightly to the cup he had in hand. "It doesn't solve anything. The damage is still there, and the wound is fresh. It's too deep it'll take years to heal"

"I know, but that's about all I can offer, i know I did bad, and it's unforgivable, but please could we at least be friends, I hate the way you treat me now."

"It'll take time to be... 'friends' again, but it's not impossible. Being so close makes it impossible to let go. I don't wanna let go, but they way things are, I know we have to. I wish things never turned out this way, I wish I could turn time and stay at the time when we were happy... when we were all happy." I said, sniffling.

"Me too, just promise me that we won't fight each other... that we won't be up each other's throat at every given opportunity, the words hurt honestly, more than you can imagine." He says.

"I promise, I guess I was being a child," I said, letting out a small laugh. "Don't say that Koo, you know I didn't mean it that way," he says, looking at me with complicated emotions in his eyes.

"Don't... don't call me that, please, it brings back memories," I said, and he immediately averted his gaze.

"We really need you Tae, even if we'll heal, it'll take time, a lot of time, I know that from the bottom of my heart, that I'll be missing a piece of my heart forever."

"I'm sorry..." he says, and I laughed, actually amused this time by the way he kept saying it. "It's okay. It was destined to happen." I said, rubbing his hair.

"I'm so..." 
"I know you are," I cut him off, laughing out loud this time. He looked at me with a gentle smile on his lips. We looked into each others eyes, lost in each other as we slowly leaned in.

The didtance between us closed, and we bith had our eyes closed, our lips just centimetres apart when I realised what we were about to do and I quickly looked away.

We looked away from each other, looking everywhere but us. "I'm sorry, I was lost in the moment," we both said at the same time. I laughed and turned my face away from him.

That was when I noticed Hobi leaning on the door, looking at us, his expression unreadable. He did not have any emotion at all. It was just his normal resting face, but I felt guilty.

"Hyung," I called softly, and Tae turned to look at me, but when he noticed I was referring to another person, he looked up and froze for a moment. Their eyes locked together for sometimes before hyung came towards me with Taes gaze following him.

"Why did you leave like that? You scared me," he says, wiping the crumbs on my mouth. "I was hungry, so I came down for some snacks," I answered with a smile.

"How long have you been here?" I asked him, "heard everything," came his court reply. "Sorry you had to see the last part," I said, holding his slender fingers in mine. I just love how their fingers look so nice and delicate.

"It's okay, I'd have probably been carried away if I was in your place also," he says. The entire time Tae didn't utter a single word, but I know he was listening.

I noticed he kept on griping and losing the grip on his cup, his lips opening and closing. He wanted to talk to hyung but didn't know what to say.

"Let's go get you in bed. Tomorrow is going to be a hectic day. I want you all to rest up." Hyung says, standing and pulling me along.

"Hyung..." we were about to leave when Tae called out to hyung. We both turned around and looked at him, but he was not meeting our gaze. His grip on the cup tightening and I was unafraid the glass would break with the way he was griping tightly on to it.

"Can you stay please..." he asks, "What do you want to say to me if I stay? " Hobi asks, his voice stoic.

Tae kept quiet for a long while before saying, "I just want your company, that's all... even if it's just for tonight," Hobi looked at him for a while before answering.

"Sorry we can't entertain you for the night," I was afraid the cup might break and injure him with the way he was griping on it, biting his lips. He looked down as a lonely tear escaped from his eyes.

"But you can come snuggle with us in the living room if your man is okay with it, I don't want a situation were by I'm I'll be blamed for taking what's his," he said.

"I don't like it when you speak like that. It hurts." Hobi looked him up and down before talking again. "Figured it'll be the easiest way to let you..."

"Be nicer, that's all I ask for, even if it's just for tonight," He says, all this while his head refuses to look up.

"Stop saying just for tonight. It makes me think we won't see you again after tonight..." Hobi told him.

He smiled, this time around looking up, "cuddles?" He says, tilting his head looking cute.

"Just for tonight..." Hobi said, stretching his hand with a smile, which was on all our faces. We headed to living room sitting on the couch as hyung arranged some duvets and pillows for us on the floor. We snuggled on them with Tae in the middle, and we both held on to him tightly, relishing the feeling before it's gone.

I wish tonight lasts forever.

Thanks💜

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