Embracing My Shepherd [COMPLETED]

Chapter 13

Surrender...

They say that high school will always be the most memorable school year and they advised to make it memorable as much as possible as youth only comes once.

But what about those kids who wanted to have fun too? Those kids who's being caged by the protection of their parents? How can they find fun if they are caged surrounded by four corners of their room.

I was always told to never even try enjoying my youth as I don't deserve it. She told me that after school I should go home and study. She doesn't care about what I do as long as it doesn't disappoint her.

But then you wouldn't blame a rebellious girl looking for fun, right? You can't blame them for wanting to have fun, right? They wanted to do the things that are being deprived from them.

But then that girl was me... A rebellious girl who just wanna have fun... I've been jealous, yes. I 've been jealous with those kids who can have fun without even thinking about the punishment they couldn't ever receive... to those kids whose parents didn't cage them..

As a kid who've been caged because of disappointments I've tried everything I could do to avoid being caged. I avoided everything that could disappoint her.

"Omg! Congrats rei!"

My friends shouting my name while congratulating me filled the entire gymnasium as they watch me in the middle of the stage as I received my certificate. I won another writing competition that was held last week.

I smiled at the camera in front before thanking them and going down the stage. I couldn't help but to look at my certificate. This is nothing for her.

Reiela krish Sandoval, English Essay writing Champion.

I wouldn't receive a single congratulate from her... Ang matatangap ko lang na salita ay kung paano at bakit dapat champion. Not second. Not first. Champion dapat. It wasn't new to me but being surrounded by my friends as they rain me with their compliments makes me feel like a kid wanting to show off my perfect examination scores to my mother.

"Ang galing!"

"Essay queen!"

I chuckled at rain's joke. I look around looking for someone in the crowd but I couldn't see a single sight of him. I breathe and focused on my friends.

Cut off ang klase ngayon upang makapag pahinga dahil intrams na next week hindi naman required pumasok pero kaming mga nanalo from the last competition ay kailangan pumasok upang mareceive ang award.

Ang mga kaibigan ko ay pumasok para lang supportahan ako maliban na lang sa isa. Hindi naman sa kailangan after all mas sanay pa akong walang supporta kaysa mayroon.

"Kain tayo!" Aya ni rain.

"Saan?" I asked.

It wouldn't hurt right? Eating with them? Celebrating with them? Kahit ngayon lang... hahayaan ko na lamang ang lahat ng mangyayari. Go with the flow. Mag e-enjoy lang siguro ako. Hindi ko na muna iisipin ang lahat nang posibilidad sa kung ano man ang maaring mangyari...

I have them... they'll understand...

"Sa amin!" She clapped.